Goodnight

I seldom open the side window that is beside my bed. But tonight the wind is strong. I had a nice day feeling really loved n loving. More on that some other time. I'm simply thankful. Open my window laying on bed, looking into the night sky. It's pretty charming.
Oh and I realise soulbirds ( this platform here where we share our thoughts) is two years and a tiny half month old. It's sweet!

Mama mi ya!

Yes! I had a very fulfilling Sunday! First, my mama delighted me with these little red birthday eggs with birthday wishes written on it with a marker! And I love the smiling face most! That is the best gift from mama! Seriously! She has been asking me what I want for my birthday. I told her no need. But those eggs mean so much! Her handwriting with misspelled word and quirky smiling face! That's so mama! And that's all I need from her! Being my mama! Being that sometimes naggy, sometimes silly, and most of the time cute mama! She is someone who will dress up my plush bear, someone who shake her butt when she hear Macarena, someone who hugged me and (grin like as i present to her a huge diamond) when I agree to go sentosa aquarium, someone who would though not highly educated but have a smart way of counting (she called it ba ka Li Shen (hokkien) meaning "Indian calculation), someone who cried when we got her a bonia bag (yes! Believe it or not, some may think its just a bonia and not a LV, but here she is utterly touched and contented with a bonia), someone who shows her tiny jealousy when we brought papa out for birthday dinner (she is just so "nothing to hide" kind of personality), someone who would ask us for money (but mainly because she want to help us save), someone who feel grateful and thankful simply with her children holding her hands or simply buy her an apple pie, someone who would so excitedly buy 4D (but got the number upside down), someone who would patch up our tiny holes in clothes and make it look brand new, someone who expresses her insecurity and fear of being alone after her children are married... I could go on and on.. Recounting and reminiscing moments with her.. She is just a simple woman who still have that kid in her, all authentic and contended. Her children and family is her everything. Any diamond or bonia or if there is a LV will simply be a "bonus". Her commitment and dedication to her family is more than 100% (something I wouldn't dare to say I could live up to but I must say I look up to). How could anyone not love this woman? I love this woman more than words can express and I'm proud that I'm an extension of her. Oh did I mention; she is the best cook ever. No five star restaurant can compares to that mama flavor:) (which get me to see I could learn more on cooking and not just about management or consulting)

She brought me to get my birthday cake. Something that have not happen for a long while because I always thought I didn't want to create a hoo haa about my birthday. But somehow this time, I realise that bringing daughter to choose a birthday cake experience could well be an experience she long for ever since we all "grew up". Her children's birthday marks an important day for her; its a day after months of carrying us and risking health and sacrificing much part of her self to finally meet us, raise us, watch us grow and gain independence and finally hoping we will always love and remember her unconditionally. Happy Birth-Day to my mama!

Rhythm of the rain

It's a rainy night.. Laying in bed cuddle under my blanket but somehow the weather is too beautiful to sleep in. Listening to the droplets of rain touching earth. Looking at little sparkling droplets hanging on the wall outside my window. This scene reminds me of Christmas eve with bird at Vivo a year plus ago:) lovely

One day

Happy Valentines day! Happy love day! It's 14.02! A date I put on poster and urge people to buy gift for their loved ones. That's my job. Ironically, I didn't really specially buy gift for bird for this day. Guess I prefer a no stress way of gift buying. Hehe I have given bird a few gifts of laughters this past few days out of my clumsy acts. Seriously I don't mind wrapping a ribbon over myself n say there you are; your gift! Haha this is the sort of silly random things that bee would love to do on bee style. Haha it's gonna be our bird days literally for the soulbirds hehe I'm looking forward because its such an unique feeling to know ur best friend is your hubby to be and both share the same date. I do somehow feel that this is guided. I won't forget how I can't stand bird when I first know him and my little astonishment to know that he share the same birthdate as me! I almost flip off my chair n quickly go Facebook to hide my birthday since I don't want to let bird know. It was hilarious! I even go to my boss n ask did he purposely find someone who shared the same birthday to curb my nonsense hahaha of course my boss have no idea about it! He just gave me a smirk on his face. To think of it now, I was such a kid. I'm still a kid. Just a little more sensitive n sensible I guess.

It's raining heavily. I'm hiding in McDonald, sipping hot tea alone. An aloneness I appreciate. Looking at teenagers passing by carrying rose reminds me of my teenage days. How girls would gift each other little sweet heart shaped cards with sweet "best friends" messages. And how the school seems to be so full of love with people running sneaking around to pass secret letter or flowers. How everyone seems to be excited about being admired or admiring someone. If I didnt remember wrongly, I received a super large card and a teddy bear from one of the scouts. I was stunned and excited and all those mixed feelings. Most of all, being a little weirdo me.. I was thinking oh no why a teddy bear! I'm not your typical Girly girl! Haha I might have asked the person, why me? Hahaha I don't remember if I get an answer. After which, I do remember there always is those teasing and awkwardness when we were at our girl guide n scout event. Oh by the way! I suddenly remember! That guy prob had the same name as me! My mandarin name pronunciation! Of course, for probably just a brief one moment, we held hands. It feels awkward! It wasn't love of course. Probably not even infatuation. He was a nice hearted person. It's simply something teenagers do. Haha a side story.. In the end I chose someone who sneak an anonymous drawing under my school desk! Someone who make me draws out my gut to confront if that's his drawing. And guess what he said no! Haha imagine my embarrassment! But as always, I walked away like nothing though I really want to bury my head. It's funny! I did confront the right person, the person who drew me the picture which I don't remember what it is now. So guess after all, I'm more interested in drawings than teddy bear. Some call this puppy love. I thought it sounded real silly. At that point of time, No one thinks about living together forever or any future. But yet it was after all a first exploration, adventure into the world of "emotions and perhaps love" It was nice, sweet, memorable, painful and a lesson. It's all a part of living life.

As years passed, valentine days is more of a a day to remember love, celebrate love with your loved ones; your partner, friends, family:)

Its not about the gift nor the flower. It's about remembering and appreciation of one another:)

Win win

Guess this is the fun project that has been sparkling the energy from the bee. Yeah! It's always nice to see people making dream come true and even nicer to see a group of people gather together to play, help and contribute each other's strength. One bake cookies, the other help knead, take photo, carry the things, give suggestions, do poster.. And in the end the best result is the fun experience we have together:) If you were to ask me what's my dream job.. Well this is it. Kick start dreams.. Get it real..ship it! Share nice things and dreams. And most of all have fun while playing working with a bunch of nice nice people! I have been taught business is business, money making is most important. I agree! Can't agree more. But if we are spending so much time in this "money project"called work or career, then isn't it time to make money while having fun!? I'm taught once again to be realistic on this topic. That money making comes first and fun don't necessary come hand in hand with money. Is that really true? True true? Haha it is true only if we believe in it I guess. In this matter, I don't think this is an efficient belief.. So no I'm not buying it. Can we create our own "money making" project, our own work scope? Why not? It takes effort, patience, time.. And some hard crack nut kind of head perhaps. But don't all work requires those? Simple facts about making a deal; a business. It gotta be Win-win! Win win to your biz partners, win win to yourself; body and soul too. My way? well..no flattery, no fanciful words or methodology. It's simply just strike it! Do it! Do and you will know. Analysis is essential but overdose of it will not bring you anywhere. Get to it and you will see the story. So cheers!! I'm high on caffeine! Oh oh and one more thing of biz "Tao"; Love!!! Love more, give more! You will be happier in the money making "project"!

It's not about the flower, it's love

I always thought giving artificial flower is insincere and cannot understand why my mum always say she prefer artificial flowers because they can last. I always brushed it off, thinking that she is probably being thrifty and want to recycle the flowers. That day at ikea, saw her so thrilled over those artificial flowers which are beautiful to me, but has always been seen as props in my perspectives. She was looking at them, adoring and she told me something that suddenly open up a different view to me. She said she wish her children could buy her a stalk of artificial flower each year.. So she can accumulate flowers in her life time. Somehow that statement shows more than her liking of flowers. It's her longing of love from us.. And I have this realization about giving; its not what we think its worth to give, it's how the receiver value n want to be given. So yes! I bought the flowers another day when I was at ikea again and this time round I was happy giving the artificial flower. It's no longer about the flower. It's purely the significance of love between me and mama. I wrapped it up with a ribbon and she was surprised and of course happy! She arranged the flowers in a vase and showing off to me. I smile. She told me she was looking at the flowers till she fall asleep and she carry the vase in and out of a cabinet haha. That's just so my mama!

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