Birdie angel with wings

My Birdie angel with new wings!

Random mix in morning

Now

"If you can't change what happened, then change your perspective towards it. Change the habit, the routine, whatever that get you down."

"Don't dwell on what you can't change, live now not in the past."

"The only reality is now" 

- Many times, sufferings are brought upon us because either we are trapped in the past or living for the future. I'm a learner of this. I struggled to live in present. My mind fluctuate from past to future but almost seldom in the present moment. Guess it is something taught to us as we grow up...parents, teachers, society teach you to think of future, to dream a dream. Nothing wrong with it. But I'm beginning to feel the toll on my soul, body and mind. It's nice to have a dream..it's nice to be in the present moment too. Because the only reality is now. 

Now may not be always good but it's when you are at a real true moment with life.

I'm a realist as much as I'm a dreamer.

Living with residue of what happened lately make it harder to live in now.

Because it constantly remind me what had happened. 

Something that I struggle to accept and let go.

However, ironically it leaves me with no choice but to live in now because I can't change whatever happened and I can't predict what's next. 

It's hell of a trap that I can't get out from.

The only thing I can do is already done.

So all I can do now is to have faith in

"This too shall pass"

Be in now:

And do whatever I can do, enjoy presently.

If I uncontrollably sink into future:

Then perhaps think further, brighter that this difficult situation now is just a phrase, a fraction compared to the long future. 

So here's a list of things I'm gonna do:

- have a hair cut

- get work done

- read some books

- brainstorming on work

- connecting to the soul at teahouse

- get my eye brow trim

- sort out my portfolio

- paint t shirt or maybe even try shoes with dye

- have good sleep

- shop for a ring 

I'm grateful for:

- have work that allows me to explore

- to have people whom I care and care for me

- to have Bird of course who is by my side in the course of my high and low

- be able to be in tune of nature and witness the sun and moon

- being able to love and be loved

Rain and fallen leaves

The rain...and fallen leaves

Washing away wounds and memories

as the cloud spun in a dance of letting go...

As I walk into the day..
the clouds gather,
spinning into a dance
in a swirl of the wind
Rain washes away
wounds and memories like dead leaves
released from hanging on
Life takes a new path
as fresh leaves grow
and flower bloom
after the rain
where the rainbow
reveals itself

Beautiful flower

  

Captured by Bird.. This is such a beautiful shot.

Love the colours, vibrancy and life in this photo..

the light touches on the petals so gently..

Trip journal

 Dark clouds rise as we touched down..

 Love this picture of Bird..

I love how we look at each other.. it's always so natural..

 Sometimes we got to travel a long and winding road in order to witness the light in us.

 Love to capture Bird in the moment with nature..

 Beauty in smallness

 There is beauty in each grain of sand..that we can only see only if we be as one with it

 Bee playing with Bird's toy..trying to snap a picture of a blue bird, but caught a white big bird in action instead:)

And of course..we met them again.. as if telling me something..

or giving me a lift.

Thank you:)

@Starbucks

Love these pictures taken..

Beauty is where we find it...

This week has been such a difficult one; one that challenges my thoughts, values and perceptions.
But in the midst of these adversity, here's some lovely things I found:

1. A bouquet of Sunflower- given by Bird
Which really surprise me and make me smile.. I just love how Sunflower opens up and radiates its energy no matter at what circumstances. 

2. Paper aeroplane - Bird folded this probably way before we got together.. 
These reminds me of how we used to fly these aeroplanes on the rooftop of a office building and at Teahouse.
It's lovely and fun:)

3. Kaleidoscope - given by Bird on our trip to Macritchie Reservoir
I remember this moment while we looking through this together, up into the sky.
Listening to Kingston Morning by Dave Eggar
Breathing in the air, the universe.

4. Birds' treehouse card - placed on my desk by Bird giving me a nice surprise:)
And this gives me a dream of one day Me and Bird could have a home of ours decorates with birds and trees...two things that give so much life to our souls.

random

"Ultimately, we are in charge of our own destinies. As philosopher Jean-Paul Sartre said "What is important is not what happens to us, but how we respond to what happens to us."

Resolve to take responsibility for your own life and be in charge of your future. Once you commit to being the one in charge of you, you will have the power and resources to make improvements in your life and overcome your hard times"

http://bethagnew.blogspot.com/

I'm thankful to find this article at times like this. I like to know I'm in charge of my life and how it could be rather than flowing along with situation and abandon my ideals and dreams. If both paths are uncertain, would I rather choose one that I have envisioned or one that I'm cast upon.

Choosing one that I envisioned doesn't mean that I'm all in believe of fairy tale and how perfect it will turn out to be but at least I know I'm not making decision based on situation thrown to me..or some mistakes that I have made. Yes everything could have pros and cons..but from young the only way I know is to walk one that first come to my mind or heart.
I'm tired.


Sometimes timing is everything.

Fear, faith, hope and gratitude

Courage is doing what needs to be done despite one's fear.

The true opposite of fear, is faith. You cannot have faith and be fearful at the same time. If you are experiencing fear, it is because you do not have the faith that you can overcome in this situation.

The only way to combat fear is to summon gratitude. Gratitude reconnects you to what is possible in your life. It reminds you that you CAN achieve, obtain, and overcome. Gratitude opens the door for God to kindle your faith. Remember, all you need is faith even as small as a mustard seed, or about the size of the period in this sentence. Fear cannot remain when faith takes hold. In the depths of fear, we may not be able to immediately overturn the fear and feel faith. That may be a leap that is too great in our desperate situation. But even immersed in fear, we can find one thing to be grateful for. And then another. And another.

All it takes is gratitude.

Being grateful that you can breathe. Being grateful that you have a mind in reasonable working order. Being grateful that your limbs and digits still work. Being grateful that you exist for one more minute. And even when you think that THAT is nothing to be grateful for, be grateful that in that one minute, there is the possibility that life can change. It can change in an instant.

Gratitude leads to hope, and hope leads to faith. Faith leads to change.

 http://bethagnew.blogspot.com/

Came across this site randomly and endup reading it and found this article about fear, faith, hope and gratitude..  

Rise like a bird

Painted a new tshirt for Bird. It's meant to be a elegant graceful bird that fly so fluidly..
But somehow it ended up being quite a feisty huge bird...with kind of a phoenix's body.
Not perfect but I'm glad Bird likes it.

Appreciating simple things like this makes life easier, lovelier.
Sometimes there could be hundred and millions things that could go wrong.
And out of these...most of which you don't have an answer or perfect solution for.
Perhaps that is where embracing imperfection could turn out to be a savior.
How do we live out of life's adversity...
to bite your teeth, hold on to your heart and believe that you could soar through it like perhaps this feisty bird.
Accept being weak and vulnerable, let yourself fall
so deep till you sink in
and rise again.
No one can give you as much strength except yourself.
Nothing could help a bird to fly if it doesn't spread its wings.
As heavy as how I'm feeling right now.. I choose to love and be loved.

Soulbirds

Drew this yesterday..it's been a while since I took time to draw and paint. Something I learnt from painting.. unlike design with software..there is no way to turn back with a control Z..to undo what you have drawn or painted. I thought that is quite a good way to help one learn how to let go of emotions and circumstances.

Latin Soul

   Alex*Cuba by Alex Cuba

This music makes me smile and dream:) Gives me some lights..to connect to the me inside..

Love Love Love

I'm dreaming of Sweden!

Dream Dream Dream

Love Love Love!

 Aren't these beautiful?!!

 

http://aroundbritainwithapaunch.blogspot.com/2011/06/swedish-lobster-safari-wild-lobster.html

Yeah! Everyone needs some dream! Some sort of looking forward to in order to get on with doing mundane work! So here I'm dreaming and taking a deep breathe just before I get started in kicking into doing the next thing on the list! 

And thought before I go on my work list, here's a little goal to go:

1. Sweden

2. Scotland

3. Ireland

4. Iceland

(Haha it's funny how the places I want to go ends with "land")

I'm an earthling!

I love exploring the lands:)
Imagining walking hand in hand with Bird down along the river with seagulls ..
smiling at the sun and telling stories from the clouds..
I can't stop dreaming!
Dreams make me feel alive!

Nobody but you - Lou Reed

I'm in love with this song:)

Nothing can beat it now!

I'm in love.

I'm in love.

I'm so in love.
A song tribute to Andy Warhol..

I'm putting this song on repeat...as I watch the clock
I'm dreaming of sipping wine and perhaps play the die.
Tapping my feet to the rhythm
My body sway from side to side..
My head nodding to the melody
that has now flooded my mind.
I'm curved up with a smile so wide.
Even my eyes are laughing...
I'm swirling
in a world of mine..
Please me..
and maybe I will let you in..
Dance dance dance...
Most know me as crazy..
Some say I'm beyond.
I prefer to go beyond "beyond"
to touch the sky
and fly into the sun
like how birds glide towards sunset..
soaring as if to say
there is nothing happier than to fly
and me still here
craving for a good cold wine.

Friends are the family we choose for ourselves

so.."how does Seahorse and Owl travel together"- a question asked by black bear some time ago..
makes me laugh so much...
so months later..here's seahorse missing black bear's quirky jokes that doesnt seems meant to be jokes but makes me laugh so much...
It makes me feel kind of sad to watch people feeling sad and bitter yet there is nothing you can do.. but at least I'm glad I didn't wait too long to visit Black bear and speak to her..on my feelings and of course bring her a little momento hopefully to let her know..I really do consider as a big part of my other family (which at least I choose to believe it is a family)
What happened happens...there is nothing we can do..but we can change our perspective of it and choose how we think about it.
People may be indispensable.. but relationship is not.
Every relationship with people..is part of our life..no matter how long it is, how happy or sad it ends up to be.. no relationship can be totally forgotten.
"What could a mother do to make a son unable to forgive...
What could a son do to make the mother unable to forgive"
This is how I felt so strongly about..if love is the key..if all these years isnt just about work..but a family.. then how could anyone not forgive someone in the family..
Holding grudges in a family usually just leads to unhappiness..
What's the point..
when we could just look beyond the circumstances..and feel the lights shining upon us.
I love this quote "Friends are the family we choose for ourselves"

Bee can cook!

Chicken Wings in oyster sauce with ginger & mushrooms!

A dish I haven't cook for at least 14 years! haha it's pretty exciting to experiment with taste!

Baked potato

 Not the best baked potato I have made.. I ran out of sea salt!! 

But over all, well edible! hehe and the herb saves it all!

Now I'm left with many washed potato wonder what should I do..

Looks like a spread!!

White wine is the best after all the cooking!!

And wedges and spicy nuggets courtesy of my brother!! 

I'm actually happy to be able to cook in the kitchen and have a little bonding time with my brother..

listening to him sharing his critique on movies..

No any luxury restaurant can compare to this experience I have here.

I'm so glad Bird enjoy the food especially my impromptu chicken wing dish! 

because personally I love this dish and I've found another similarity between us;

Bird loves dish with ginger too! hehe I love ginger! ginger with century egg, ginger tea, raw ginger with sashimi... hehe 

Loves:D

Thankful for such lovely weekend of wine and dine at home:)

Awareness

Well this was supposed to be posted yesterday but my email blogging doesn't seems to work..

Some moments I thought it's good to remember and aware...simply because it feels so special to be able to be in sync with moments around me and gaining insight from it.

On my way to work..Saw two cats spiking up their fur kind of staring at each other..n hiding from each other.. N a bird picking up cat's food.. A bird that soar n glide in the sky n return home.. N a woman in wheelchair prob with a leg amputated.. With a guy pushing the wheelchair... The sun somewhere hiding behind the clouds... Such is life eh..we fight.. We glide.. N at times we feel despair.. It is watching our surrounding that makes us appreciate life.. N realise Everyone has their story..n moment.. But in the end this is what make up of life.. N in this we found love.. Sometimes when we lose balance in our life..we just have to remember we r not alone..whatever we are experiencing are part of the moments makes up of life.