New book for new year!

Got this book for myself! and im loving it:)

Enigma and Sunrise

Bird just sent me this video and im totally awed!!! Enigma and Sunrise!!!! 

Have been loving the music of Enigma since young.. and Sunrise and here it is.. both in one. hehe 

Beautiful:)

New year eve

without realising...it's actully officially the last day of 2011 now!!! 

what are you doing on new year eve!? 

well...well.. I think count down party is kind of over rated. 

Nevertheless, new year eve and day is a special moment for me. Well I feel it with utmost respect and view it as a transition..from the old to the new. It's a great opportunity for us to reflect, forgive, love and give... Most of all, to be thankful for everything we have.

New year day can be just another day or it could be a day of greatness empowering us 

if we hold it as a day of great transition from old to the new.. a great moment to take whatever first step we have been holding back..a great moment to give a pat on our shoulder and a wide smile, affirming a great year ahead:)

Happy New Year Eve!!

Care for a dip?

 Reading an article from matador.. It's beautiful.. N get me thinking how many people n at what occasions have they share the beautiful breathtaking moment of the eclipse. It is a love shared..... It's greatness from the universe hehe I'm feeling like I have to dip into water which actually metaphorically feels like my soul.. I need to dip into my soul.. N lift my head above it and take a large breathe of air in order to push forward.. N to rekindle the light shining upon the water haha leave bee alone n this is what u get.. A bee sinking into some bee in wonderland

Restless cat n Bee

A pic of the restless cat by the restless bee hehe :P

Love this cropping of the photo by BIRD!!!

*yes I'm sneaking from drawing to post this up so yeah I cant wait to share it!*

random

There are still so much more I want to share here!!!

• the orange light
• the forest and the lightness 
• running free...
• the little moments of nature's beauty
• new year resolution and goal
• accomplishment and wrap up of the year
• the book journal I got myself
• what makes me happy
• things that I'm looking forward!!! 

Well.. a long day tomorrow and need myself to be alive for it..so I shall just leave those brief points here so I could continue hopefully before the new year! 

Rising to the sun:)

 So this is Xmas day...went to a new mall, while waiting for a midnight show..we sat ourselves at Max Brenner's chocolate place! aaaww forget to snap a pic of the menu!! It's such a lovely story told in the menu.. we were so into reading the menu till we almost forget to place order. Love their hug mug! yeah a little quirky name and it makes me smile so much hugging the mug sipping the hot cocoa!

I didn't really think their drinks were superb. I believe I have tasted something nicer, hotter! hehe but the story is so enchanting:) Bring me like alice into wonderland. 

Did you spot something orange and sprouting out from my bag? hehe 

well clearly I was so oblivious to my surrounding. 

when this picture was taken, I still have no idea that Bird had plucked a flower from somewhere n slot it in my bag! n even show me this picture which he took of me n the flower, thinking I may see it! 

But I didn't!

It was only when I slipped into a toilet, and suddenly as I turned around, had a fright! and was in a confused mode! Is this my bag? how come there is a flower? lalalala 

:P

 and we decided to take a seat in donalds after the show and walked over to the seaside for sunrise!! 

I love watching sunrise!! it's such a beautiful and renewing moment. Each time you see a sunrise, it just reminds you that each moment is new and each day is to be cherished! To remember to love and be loved.

We waited and waited and the sky is still clouded. Just as our eyes are closing..and we decided to go grab breakfast. I stood up feeling glad that we are waiting for the sunrise together. Saw some mimosa and started snapping pictures! and just as I looked up! I caught a glimpse of the sun rising to us! hehe 

which leads me to think of a statement "it's a matter of time!" and yeah!! 

Oh I did my leap again and Bird caught me flying high up! hehe Loving it!! oh and there are the two of us trying to open eyes big big despite the sleepiness getting on us!

hmm as I'm writing this, a phrase come to my mind

"a leap of faith" :)

Xmas of Bird and Bee

 

Had a great xmas weekends. It was a tiring xmas eve from work but yet manage to have some fun;

catching a show 'we bought a zoo" and have a little stroll out in the rain! yeah!! I was looking at the rain as Bird was contemplating to catch another show. And when Bird asked me how.. I just said I want to go out. hehe a little like a kid, not daring to say that I want to go out in the rain to play! hehe 

Nevertheless, as we were watching the rain and me fascinated with snapping pictures of the rain drop by the christmas light, Bird told me to go out and do a spin so he could take a pic of me! OF COURSE! I did!!! amused and amazed!! by this connection! hehe I strolled into the rain and did a spin and a jump! And most of all, Bird did a great nice leap in the rain too!! woohoo!!

Free as Birds

Miss Sun and Mr Moon

Miss Sun and Mr Moon! ^_^

Music Journal Deni Bonet

Loving these tunes! And the blue violin!

Tasting and being in touch

Have you ever feel like that you've done so much and maybe alittle too much for you to handle..

Have you wish you could just sit on a hill and watch the world passes by.. (This reminds me of a song "The fool on the hill" by The Beatles)

Have you just hope to be in peace with yourself before moving onwards to anything else..

Well...

I'm feeling all the above now. 

Listening to ukulele mix of Beatles..aww.. Beatles.. the magic of their song never wear off. 

It eases my mind alittle and return me to that light feather that floats with the wind. 

Or maybe it's those muscle relaxant tablets that I took. It's such a pity that I have problem relaxing myself that I have to resort to tablet to slow down my mind and let me be alittle more comfortable with myself and what I'm doing. It's the year end. But in no way it feels like it. Because somehow I'm already in 2012 already. I feel as if I skipped the new year. I skipped the joy of Christmas, busy planning whatever needs to be done and filling up dates to meet deadline. 

I have my music on every moment I travel to and fro work. But never have I listen to music in such a manner for a long time. Really simply listening to the lyrics and each melody play by each instrument. Each string, each notes..makes me smile. Bring me to a happy land. A land where it is alright to just simply be who you are and do what you feel and believe. 

It's a shame I only realise that music has somehow been just a form of escapade for me and not really being appreciated like a glass of wine or a pint of fruity foamy ice cold beer.

Suddenly I get it why do those black and white oldies films always seems to show someone sitting by a bar or a gramophone doing nothing but smoking cigar or sipping wine so so slowly..

They are tasting the music. Tasting the moment as the smoke gathers in a little ball rolling in the air. 

*suddenly realise its been a year since the last time I been to roomful. How time flies while you are busy making ends meet. Why do designer tend to smoke weeds..well thanks to media and profit making machines..everything is about speed. Designers just got rolled over and over projects..and so often it's not because they are drained of ideas. It's simply because their mind is pushed so fast that they need some weeds to reduce those speed. To hear their heart beats again. To do a little tap dance.

Love how he skip and hop..on the hill...and those silly grin...makes me feel thankful to be able to listen to this beautiful music and be in touch once again..

Need to recondition my body, soul and mind

I'm awake at 5am again from the body aches and headache. 

Ended up cutting those big pieces of plasters.

2 plasters for my shoulders, 2 plasters for my waist, 1 tablet for headache, 1 tablet for running nose. I'm grabbing crystal stone that Bird handed me earlier (Stated for exhaustion and aches in bones), rubbing it in my hands, placing it beside my bed, blowing my nose, lying down and sitting up, turning my pillow round and round.

I'm feeling so so weak! Seriously need a reconditioning of my body.

The thing is mentally, I just thought I'm tired but keep telling myself that I'm not exhausted yet and I should do more before I'm really depleted! Which is what I told Brother Bear. I want to get things done before xmas really ends and everyone and everything seems to lose its momentum and come to a standstill that can only pick up in months. So I went back office, passes work down and keeping track of deadlines for things to come.

I just didn't know how to really relax and take things at a lighter note sometimes. Everything is important to bee. And here I'm suddenly realizing that my health my body is the most important of the list!

That's so much to do that it will never get done. I need to learn how to take a break. 

here's a list of things to do for reconditioning my body:

1. Drink more water!

2. Get a new pillow that enhance sleeping posture! As I begin to suspect it's my pillow that is contributing to all those shoulder and neck tension because of its angle and thickness. 

3. Take breaks in between 

(do some doodling in my notebook with sweet lovely stuffs, write a few words, browsing some beautiful pictures that make me smile...or simply do nothing)

4. Go on holiday

(Set a location for exploration and just go and do nothing)

5. Go for walks/ cycling

6.  Snooze at home watching French films of quirkiness and love

7. Wear more dress 
(I tend to be more relaxed and do less in a dress)

 

Moon

http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2011/12/lunar_eclipse_of_december_10_2.html

Love this image:) Wish I'm here with Bird..

In between the sun and the moon

 First is the sun.... this marks our first moment together

 Our journey begins with the sun:)

 Our moments watching the sun rises together:) It's a beautiful moment.

 And here's the day where we are aligned in between the sun and the moon..about one year later:)

 It's beautiful how the universe is just is.

here's the moon flourishes and lit up the night sky with love and light:)

Reflection

Bee was somehow tossing around in a emotion roller coaster yesterday and kind of getting myself drained up with headache. I slept through the morning. Was told to help out at a store when I finally woke up. But I decided I have to be in peace with myself before proceeding with today. I kind of look into space in my room, looking at a stack of books Bird gave me and saw this title "Everything is going to be ok" Such a simple statement but yet it is such a important few words to remember. 

I flipped through the books as I reflect on my emotions and feelings and thoughts. Just like what I read before; Thoughts are what we choose to think and feel.

Here's a text message I sent to Bird. I want myself to remember and so here it is:

"Was flipping through this book u gave me.. Reflecting on my emotions. It's the critical part of me that makes myself tense up. As I flip through the pages, this statement come to my mind " all I need is confidence" in everything n thankful for having you. Sometimes it feels like u r in my life so that I could remember to take things lighter n less critical about myself. N the next thought, I wonder why do people tends to believe in sadness rather than happiness. I'm happy to have u n all the moments that we have but yet I'm at times so no confidence that everything is good. It is just me n my self sabotage at work. Just yesterday.. When brother bear told me he is impressed by how I can get unfamiliar work done within such Short time.. I can choose To be happy But somehow i feel Stress up about future.. About what he may expect of me. But in actual fact thinking of it now, its prob my expectation for myself that is driving myself crazy. This may not b the best time to text u this cos u may b busy.. But I was just trying to gather thoughts so I can let them go n breathe in new life. Thank you for being supportive n loving in my life. Your love show me light to a deeper sense of myself where all the answers lies. I love you."

And here it is what soulbirds is about..a journey of us in love and light:) and a journey of reflections and lessons learn we would love to share. 

First with Bird

Just read an article from the change blog..and it makes me feel grateful for who I'm, what I have and people I met in my life. As I'm sharing this with Bird, I realise I have a lot of "first" with Bird. 

First time....

1. being in love with someone from work

2. saw flock of white birds in a beautiful formation

3. saw some rooster and hens in a park

4. experience the lunar eclipse right above us

5. saw swallow grinning at me and knowing they are really agile Bird

6. watching a sky full of stars 

7. watching sun rise on a mountain as we drink hot milo in the cold

8. walking into a mossy forest

9. so touched by a poem 

10. Flying paper aeroplane on a roof top

11. first time singing and recording a song for someone

12. going up Genting in shorts and tank top with no room to sleep in

13. eating in a "tree" house

14. realise that stinyray is not triangle in shape

15. 8 hours or more walk in a park

16. met family of toucan birds, parents feeding the young

Paper Birds

Paper Birds we folded:) Guess which is mine? hehe :P

Amazing moments of life

This is beautiful!!! Beyond words! And thankful for someone to capture these moments:) this perks me up from a drying morning of work.     

Soulbirds dream:)

http://pinterest.com/pin/53339576806148700/

 Soulbirds:) This is giving me a beautiful dream now.. ^_^

and I love this dress and her hairstyle!!! neat and poppy!

My lunch

My lunch! Instant noodle with fishballs and egg. Accompanied by ikan bilies my mum prepared earlier. At home, we seldom have meals in the kitchen because the size is simply not very conducive. But at times, when I'm alone at home, I do love to eat in the kitchen especially a day like this where the sunlight shines in with gentle breeze, birds chirping and blue sky with white clouds:)

This is a luxury:)

Enjoy simple pleasure in life and you will realise the beauty of it:)

Bliss:)

 Love this picture Bird took of me! I think I sparkle haha..

These few days have been a swirl for me with running about, liaising with different people. 

I wish I have more time to really settle in and enjoy these lovely moment, very important day of my life. Yes! To really sink in and breathing in all. Every blog post has been some sort of a rush in between works. Well so that I wont miss any moments while dealing with different aspect of work.

Anyway.. I'm taking a moment here to post this beautiful collage Bird make to mark our day:) 

Thank you Bird for being so loving and understanding..while Bee is trapped in pile of buzzing. 

And in the midst of all the rushing for work, at the end of the day, it is knowing there is someone waiting and watching over me and we have a future to build that give me the strength and energy. 

I'm looking forward to our bto result and of course at the back of my mind, I'm excited for the whole marriage thing. Which is great! hehe *blushing* :P

Oh and here I found a picture of us probably last year when we were just friends and colleagues. 

How time flies and I feel blessed to have Bird:)

Bird and Bee

Us n funny faces:D

Love this picture so very much!! the playful side of Bird!

A pic Bird took of Bee..looks demure eh haha:P

So here's my new ring!! named "Sunrise" 

hmm can't wait to have a ring where we can both wear the same:)

10.12.2011 where the Moon meets the sun, the Bird and Bee become one

 It was all unexpected for both of us. Although perhaps news have already been flooding internet about an full lunar eclipse on 10.12.2011. Bird received a text from his sister about an eclipse going on as both of us pack up to leave work from Vivo. Both of us had a long day and as we walked along the overhead bridge to bus interchange for me to catch a bus home. Bird popped out his head to look above for the eclipse. The thing is I heard about eclipse but never thought it could really be witnessed here in our little island with naked eyes. To our amazement, we found the eclipse going on like a little grey dot that somehow seems to turn a little orange colour. We are both in awe! It is beautiful! Of course especially knowing somewhere out there what we are witnessing is actually the straight alignment of the moon, earth and the sun and all reflected as one here. 

 And to the utmost respect to iphone, Bird actually managed to capture the beautiful eclipse as Bee was looking out into the night of Christmas lights, remembering how this place is kind of where we connect in a special way during last year Christmas season. 

The flowers at night are beautifully rested along the overhead bridge. 

Bird pulled me to a corner of the bridge, mumbling something like "since it's such a beautiful night...."

and gave me a big hug as I looking into the eclipse which is now getting brighter, beaming at us. 

I am really appreciative and so so thankful to be able to share such beautiful moment with a man I love and connect so deeply. And just at this moment, Bird knelt on his knees and grin at me saying "Marry me" WOW! as he pulled out a tiny ring from my right finger which he gave me sometime ago and put it right back. haha of course Bird is confused which hand to wear an engagement ring. It's all unexpected for both of us. It just feels right. Bird stood up and we hug! and told me that he actually bought a ring which intended to give me as an engagement ring but of course which he didn't bring! haha and a moonstone bracelet which he already wore it on my hands during a movie sometime ago. 

Bird being Bird as a quiet nature is definitely great at giving little surprises. Unlike Bee who usually just cant wait to share joy and surprises which kind of make the surprises so outright open! haha Well here's us, our differences and our similarities and most of all, our souls as one just like the moon, earth and sun.

As a woman, I have been imagining all kind of ways to be proposed and how I would like to be surprised and all the props and people that come along in it. But on this night, when Bird finally proposed to me. It's something that I have never imagine. On a bridge, under the eclipse, just the two of us, no diamond ring, no bouquet of flower, me in my shorts and tank top. Bird proposed to Bee. 

And at that moment, all those "standard protocols" of a proposal doesn't matter anymore. Because in front of me, it's someone who I love and can't wait to spend my life with, creating our own homes and making our dreams into reality. 

Just about a year ago, I caught myself feeling something for Bird as we watch sunrise on Mt Faber, right opposite of where we stood last night. I was rambling with Bird that hey! we have come one round as one now just like the moon and the sun who finally meet. I love the sun and the moon and this day definitely is the perfect moment for us. 

And here's alittle funny bit; I ask Bird so don't he want to wear the ring on my left hand.. (Of course, didn expect him to down on knees again) But he did! awww I have got myself a very lovely Bird! hehe

We went to minimart because Bird want to show me a magazine which he seen earlier. He couldnt find it. And there I was pulling out a magazine n reading out the title on the cover page! And voila! that's the magazine Bird wanted to show me. On the cover is a title; A matter of time! We both felt it was perfect!!! since on this special night really feels like it's a right time. So we got the magazine as a momento! hehe

We went to Mcdonald to grab a drink and there is Bird combining the date 10.12.2011 to see if it forms 8 in numerology and it does! Exactly 8!!

And as we flipped look at our magazine, we suddenly saw this sticker of vendor code for the magazine and the numbers look so familiar! 8120! Our birthday falls on 1802 and here's a 8120, so if you read from the center of this set of number and connecting it to the last number of the set, it does read out; 1802! hehe yeah yeah!! it's amazing!!! hehe We are in awe!!!! I have told Bird before that marriage is about two complete person coming together to form one circle together; to be one. And here's our number showing us the round hehe..

 oh and as I wake up, Bird sent me a series of photos and article and we realise it is a rare sight of lunar full eclipse that we have witnessed last night. Where the Moon and the Sun are exactly 180 degree apart!! 180!!! hehehe!!!

Every work entails a unique story.

These are taken by my beloved Bird. Interesting capturing the tiny little things in life. 

Though of course this is nothing tiny in physical size hehe!

How many would pay close attention to this?

Every work entails a unique story.