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Have you had the strange sense of happiness lingering somewhere in you and yet you are speechless about it? This is how I am feeling now. A strange sense of happiness with a bubbling over flowing desire to move forward, to be me. To introduce me to the world. To be the wild child and loving it. There is this sense of rising energy that follows the sharp commitment I made. Each smile is different. Each moment is filled with clarity. There is no doubt. There is no thought on how anyone would think. It is no longer valid. The validity has expired. The drama has ended. I'm seeing and living in my own vision and the vision of universe. I shall be guided. I'm on my journey home to my soul, the core, the oneness. From the moment I encountered and touched by the falcon experience, yes I do believe there is something bigger than me. No I still don't believe in the theory, stories of after life that were typically told and preached. I believe life exists in oneness with the universe. I believe in being. Here, I release me to the universe, to being.

Flourish from Life's Challenges and Adversities!

"No experience is ever a waste. No event is ever accidental. Life proves to be an endlessly supportive and enlightening phenomenon. It doesn't always feel like that, particularly when things get weird, stressful, lonely, or painful. Yet it is precisely in the midst of these challenges that the universe offers its most remarkable and precious upgrades. Fundamental realizations are often gift-wrapped in crisis. If we can fully grasp their meaning, we need not suffer their drama again." ~ Neil Kramer in The Unfoldment

Ready is a state of mind

Yes it's time. No, I'm not going allow anyone to judge whether I'm ready for something or not. No one is not ready for things. Because there is nothing you can be hundred and one percent ready to do. Anything can happen. Readiness is a state of mind. Readiness is a how deep a breathe you take. Readiness is an illusion. Readiness limits your vision and potential. Since we were kids, we were taught to be ready. Get ready for school. Get ready for exam. Get ready for dinner. When we grew older, we get ready to work. Get ready to be with someone. Get ready to marry. Get ready to have kids. Get ready for everything. Yes, getting ready and be prepared for things is definitely important and I am not doubting that. But the key word here is "Ready" and not getting ready. Getting ready will never prepare you enough to be ready. Gaining momentum is the key to begin. Being ready is the fuel. It's not about getting ready, it's about being committed. Once you are committed to something, your state of mind has everything to tell you how ready you are. I may not be as strong as a bull, but I'm a warrior, I'm a dancer. I'm a warrior who dance with my sword and I love how I am. Yes inspired by Tony Robbins's audio this morning. He mentions everyone has a blue print for life. A blue print we imprinted into our mind based on our perceptions. A blue print is like a metaphor we take on for life. He mentioned these words "Life is a __________" Life is a dance to me. The jazz, the hip hop, the ballet, latin, waltz.. Life is a dance. There are times that require the swiftness and toughness, there are times that require the tenderness and elegance. There are times when you dance free alone, there are times you dance in sync with a partner. Dance follows beats, like how life follows your heart beats. There will be people who would tell you that you are not ready for something. There will be people who would give you a list of things to prepare for readiness.

Next time if any one were to tell you these again. Tell the person "No one is born ready for life. No one is born ready to walk. It's not about being ready. It's about being committed. Ready is a state of mind."

I'm thankful to the person who told me I'm not ready. Because it only leads me to see how ready and committed I'm.

Live in the name of FUN

"Anything that's not fun is not worth doing" - Jeanine from kaleidoscopic island

Destiny Attunement: Making New Choices & Creating New Possibilities

The choices we have today are extensions of the decisions we made in the past. Though our past decisions have a profound influence on our present conditions, we can always make conscious, empowering choices that set a new direction and become a new precedent for the future.

This is how to attune your destiny and create new possibilities. Choose wisely!

Snails hanging out to dry their flooded shells!

This is what happens when the shells if snails get flooded... They all hangout together!

Yogi Cat on a rainy Sunday :o)

Yogi Cat on a rainy Sunday :o)

Insights on Anger

Anger is a passing emotion and there are healthy ways to express it. It's when we hang on to anger that it hurts us most.

When we repress anger, it grows from frustration into resentment. This how we unknowingly began building an invisible wall around us; accumulating layers and layers of negative emotional energy that clouds out the love, joy and peace in our lives.

Do we really know ourselves best

Brush my teeth, wash up, make up. All in front of a mirror. For years, this is the routine. I look into the mirror every morning, looking at my hair, brush strokes of blusher, but yet I didn't see myself. I was too absorbed by the routine that it becomes something I do ritually every morning.

This morning as I was falling into a daze in the train, suddenly I saw a woman in the reflection on the glass window opposite me. A woman with long hair, sharp jaw line, full lips, sit with straightened shoulders. There is something edgy about her. She look confident, stoic, calm. For a moment, I feel almost intimidated by her presence. Yet I can't help to notice this soft lovingness beneath her face and body. The kind of bliss you see in a child. It took me a while to realise the reflection is mine. I'm the woman I saw. We always remember faces of people around us; friends, loved ones. Do we remember ourselves? How we look in the mirror, how our features all sum up together to make this being we are. If you were to ask me to paint of portrait of my friends and loved ones, I would probably able to do so with some reminiscing of moments. However, if you were to ask me to paint a portrait of myself, I'm not so sure if I could do it. This is a valuable insight for me. How do I love myself if I can't even recognize myself in my reflection.

We recognize ourselves when we look back at photos taken. But is it really seeing and recognizing ourselves or it is simply a knowing that we are in the picture. Or is it the moment we remember? All these got me really intrigued.

Just because we are in this body we see in the mirror, does that mean we know ourselves most?

Perhaps next time when someone tell you they know themselves best, ask them to sketch a self portrait.

Here's a mirror reflection of me taken by my friend. First look at the photo, I didn't really recognize myself. I just know its me.

Have Faith in Miracles!

"Faith is not just a theological principle; it is a mental and emotional muscle. It is an aspect of consciousness, a function of the mind. With every attitude we demonstrate faith - either faith in what can go wrong or faith in what can go right. Out problem is that we tend to have tremendous faith in the power of our disasters and far too little faith in the power of miracles." ~ Marianne Williamson in The Law of Divine Compensation: On Work, Money, and Miracles

Discovery vs Recovery

Bird surprised me with a show today; Cirque Du Soleil! Perfect timing to watch the show today for many reasons! I have always wanted to watch, but just didn't get to do it. Oh and how it makes me want to watch them live! A lyrics in it triggers a thought, an insight. "Return to where you belong"

Here's my insight:
There is an invisible line between innovative thinking and imaginative exploration. Like the statement, I feel like I have traveled quite a journey so far and its time to reunite with my core where I belong. The diversity in the show has revealed a side of me that I have almost forgotten. Me who is imaginative and ever changing.

I who is an ever shifting kaleidoscope. The angel, the devil. The existence, the non existence. The dream, the truth. The lightness, the boldness. The colors, the dark. The surface, the depth. The reflections, the perceptions.I encompasses so much more than what I have known for the past years.

So you may ask what's the difference between innovative thinking and imaginative exploration. Here's my interpretation: I have always think, brainstorm for ideas to meet an objective that serves certain function. It's more like a solution to problem approach of thinking. It's a great sense of satisfaction! So what's imaginative exploration? It's about opening ourselves to the intuitive flow, letting imagery fill our minds without a specific objective to solve any challenge. It's more of a journey of discovery instead of recovery. This journey of discovery of letting our imagination grows will add more dimension to an innovative mind and freeing it to new possibilities that we may have missed out when we are all focusing on innovative thinking.

Life is a full circle

"This is going great! It's certainly looking exciting and adventurous!"- this is how I am feeling these two days as I look into the future after having officially announce my new path to my fellow dear ones two days in a row! Magical is the word! I didn't plan for a time to launch myself out there. Neither do I plan what and how to describe what I do beforehand. All it takes was seriously: a deep breathe, a voice of gut and most of all is granting myself to be ready! I said granting of myself because I have been brewing this precious "cup of tea" about what I love to do for a while, I have been mapping out pages of paths, but I never feel ready, I keep thinking something is missing and most of all, I didn't dare to launch! I still do not know how I do it! But it seems that everything is gearing me towards my core, guiding me with light shining on for clarity and receiving the energy from many angels around. All that I was preparing; a website, name card, introduction writeup suddenly seems falling back into a quiet background when I step up and announce the "reinvented" me across the long table of McDonald at a wee hour of a Saturday to my dear friends and colleagues. It doesn't take a name card or a website or a write up to be ready. It is simply being ready. Being is the key! I have read so much about "just be" and "being it". I thought I know what it was all about. Knowing is just first part of the story, knowing prepares your mind for it. But nothing compares to the magic of embodying it and experience the whole moment of transformation from one state to another with almost a flick of the fingers! And sure, it takes passion! To put things in a more accurate perspective, it takes an overflowing of passion to contribute, to share, so much that I am compel to take action to simply give, to share. This is a very interesting lesson or insight gained. We always measure our readiness with the amount of knowledge we have and skills learnt. They are great tools to measure. And thats what I have been preparing. It is good to be prepared as I was taught during my Girl Guide days. But hidden from my knowledge or perhaps under the radar of my consciousness, there is one more key needed to unlock the flow. The key to finally arrive at the tipping point of whichever part of journey we are on. The key of giving, the ability to contribute and empower fellow beings with the light I see in them. I'm compel to unlock them to the light in them.

I do not know about this key. Perhaps I read about it. I know giving is essential in our living as a form of sharing a part of ourselves with others since we are all a part of this universe. We are one. What I do not see until now is that giving activates growth, and a greater being in us that perhaps we do not meet till we first recognize and appreciate ourselves.

This post is an over flowing of my soul, my core. I didn't know how to exactly explain or describe this that I'm experiencing. It is perhaps an unspeakable truth for each of us to experience and tell in our life story.

To be frank, this post has kind of travel further than I visualize it to be and arrive at a place away from where I intended to. It's all good though. I'm loving it and thankful for this journey of flow.

Through this flow, I can't help but to share what I realize; life indeed is a full circle; from recognizing our strengths and ability to give, to receiving the key of contributing, to unlock the flow to activating the growth in us and all. to finally arrive at recognizing ourselves.

Give and receive, you and me. We are one full circle.

Green Friday!

Haunting Thursday!

You are as ready as you are required to be

It's important to get things (dreams, bucket list, ambitions, career switch etc) started. It is more so to believe that you have already started it. 

There is a difference between getting started and already started. 

Getting started = Searching, finding, getting ready 

Already started = Done, you are in it, you are as ready as it requires you to be (This doesn't necessary mean you are all equipped, it just means you will definitely have a way to getting things done and this is important.

Faith if you call it (in spirituality), Confidence if you call it (in modernity), Being Gutsy (in my terms)

*Disclaimer: I'm not saying preparation is unimportant. I'm just saying just do it (whatever you have to)

Photos from my day

Who owes you?

“Even after all this time, the Sun never says to the Earth, you owe me.”
~ Hafez

Imagine what life would be like with a love like that?...

Can you see the star-spangled nighttime sky?

"...our brain blocks out, or veils, that larger cosmic background, just as the sun's light blocks the stars from view each morning. Imagine how limited our view of the universe would be if we never saw the star-spangled nighttime sky.

We can only see what our brian's filter allows through. The brain - in particular its left-side linguistic/logical part, that which generates our sense of self - is a barrier to our higher knowledge and experience."

~ Dr Eben Alexander in Proof of Heaven: a Neurosurgeon's Journey into the Afterlife

Grass Cutting

It's grass cutting time again... It's not something I like... But I guess it's a necessary evil in our urban environment.

Some call it landscaping, some liken it to grooming, others simply call it scheduled maintenance. For these workers, it's just work.

I was once pretty pissed off with this whole grass cutting thing cos I witnessed the destruction it caused to a beautiful colony of ladybirds. I once found this whole tribe of ladybirds & one day, they were nearly totally eliminated after such a scheduled maintenance.

This particular group worked in a team of five, two on each side of the road, plus one man trailing behind blowing away the cut grass.

Early Morning Queue for News

Early Morning Queue for 'Today' (right) & 'mypaper' (left). Only managed to capture a small part of the queue for 'mypaper'.

Cat in the Night

Took a quick shot of this cat in the night :-)

Renewal Mantra/Prayer

Everyday is new,
Oh what a lovely view!
Every breath is a gift,
That's the way I live!

I am a Photographer

I might not be able to stop time,
but I can capture the moment.
I might not be able to stall death,
but I can immortalise memories.
I am Alex Chua.
I am a Photographer.

Relaxing in the Shade

Kaleidoscopic me

I am kaleidoscope
You are rays of light

01.01.2013

First day of the year. This morning I woke up at 6.30am, look out of the window..the air feels fresh, the sky is brightening to a tint of charming blue. I hear the birds whisper, I wake with them in their singing. I feel kaleidoscopic. I feel great. I feel fearless. I feel all lights in me. I feel I'm radiating with a peaceful energy in colorful multitude. I accept me. I breathe colors. My core is dancing. Dance with me. Nothing gonna stop me. I love you. I love me. I love how my cells are made of kaleidoscopic flowers.

Closing Circles

"It is always important to know when something has reached its end. Closing circles, shutting doors, finishing chapters, it doesn't matter what we call it; what matters is to leave in the past those moments in life that are over." ~ Paulo Coelho in The Zahir

Carry the lessons, wisdom & spirit. Transform the light into colours & carry on forward to create a new legacy.

Sharing some colours to brighten up your day.

"Every note leaves in each of us a memory, but it is the melody as a whole that tells a story." ~ Paulo Coelho in Aleph

There is no hiding from the new year.

I was greeted by a stunning display of fireworks as I approached home last night. This was the first time in my 30 years of living here that there is fireworks right within the estate itself. The beautiful display lit up the night for families that gathered at the communal area to herald in the new year.

There is no hiding from the new year. There is no hiding from life. There is no hiding from sharing your sparks. There is no hiding from sharing your legacy. There is no hiding from your destiny.

May this new year be a year full of love, laughter & light for you & your family.