Yes. A chance I been waiting for a long time. A moment where we could connect n cherish just these little moments together. Bro and dad and me. Guess my vacation is a fulfilling one with bonding time with my loved ones at home. This is priceless.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Doing nothing
Love this quotation from pooh:)
Nothing is impossible. I do nothing everyday haha nice to remind myself that is okay to do nothing once in a while.
Nothing is impossible. I do nothing everyday haha nice to remind myself that is okay to do nothing once in a while.
Morning jog
Decided to go for a jog to clear my head and balance those negative, positive, active, passive energy. Well I haven't jog for a long long time. So this is definitely a big tiny step. Set an alarm at 530. Got out of house at 6am, saw elderly already doing their walk and exercise. Didn know where to jog to so I just go my usual way. Didn't take me long enough before my breathe gonna die on me and remembering the black out I experienced the last time I jog, I slowed down and the slowness ended up in a walk. I still prefer a walk.
It's nice taking a walk in the morning where the air is cool. Of course it will be greater if there r less people rushing or work. But well such is life.
Somehow, I walked along a canal as the sky brightens up and birds started to take flight towards the sun. I stood by the canal, pointing my camera at the sky, waiting for the birds to fly past. And they did. Hehe they fly into the orangy pink sky as the sun reveals itself from behind the clouds.
It's a beautiful sight. I miss Bird. Wish he could be there too. Well I watched birds having their breakfast diet of fishes from the canal. And some black tiny birds that kind of look like ducks on the opposite of the canal bank. They were running. I thought they would probably run faster than me. Haha I climbed up a slope trying to take a closer picture of a tree that looks like its shedding it's bark. There were pot holes in the field and Birds's usual warning statements came to my mind. "becareful of snakes!", "becareful of holes" oops! I turned around n suddenly Realise bird is not aroud with me this time. I better get my way back to the park trail hehe.
It's a nice morning:) though my muscles ache now. Oh!!and I Realise it's a heavy sky traffic up there for the birds!! All kind of birds were flying across the sky. Caught fleet of pigeons in action. Wonder what were they doing. They were going from left to right and right to left. Beautiful. I literally stand at the bus stop pointing my iPhone in the sky with mouth open wide in a "wow"!
Time like this is so beautiful:)
It's nice taking a walk in the morning where the air is cool. Of course it will be greater if there r less people rushing or work. But well such is life.
Somehow, I walked along a canal as the sky brightens up and birds started to take flight towards the sun. I stood by the canal, pointing my camera at the sky, waiting for the birds to fly past. And they did. Hehe they fly into the orangy pink sky as the sun reveals itself from behind the clouds.
It's a beautiful sight. I miss Bird. Wish he could be there too. Well I watched birds having their breakfast diet of fishes from the canal. And some black tiny birds that kind of look like ducks on the opposite of the canal bank. They were running. I thought they would probably run faster than me. Haha I climbed up a slope trying to take a closer picture of a tree that looks like its shedding it's bark. There were pot holes in the field and Birds's usual warning statements came to my mind. "becareful of snakes!", "becareful of holes" oops! I turned around n suddenly Realise bird is not aroud with me this time. I better get my way back to the park trail hehe.
It's a nice morning:) though my muscles ache now. Oh!!and I Realise it's a heavy sky traffic up there for the birds!! All kind of birds were flying across the sky. Caught fleet of pigeons in action. Wonder what were they doing. They were going from left to right and right to left. Beautiful. I literally stand at the bus stop pointing my iPhone in the sky with mouth open wide in a "wow"!
Time like this is so beautiful:)
Monday, January 30, 2012
Me myself n bear
Life is a dream. We wake from a dream to fall into another. It's alright. It's not the dream or reality that matters because all these are mere words. It's the experience that matters. I don't know why I'm writing this.
I was feeling kind of upset by brother bear's words earlier on. I am glad that Bird give me the chance to express my disappointment to brother bear so that it won't transform into anger. He is right. I didn Realise it's simply disappointment. I'm touched that Bird understand my feelings.
Well now sitting on bed after trying to find my tea candles to lit up my burner for the essential oil too soothe my mood. ( didn manage to find any) n this time I learn to let go n just sit on bed hugging My fur bear. Staring into the darkness, suddenly I'm aware of the sound of the fan, the ticking of the clock, the occasion sound of car engines and mostly sound of the night.
I kind of appreciate n love this feeling. I love how bear melts my tension. Makes me feel loving n kind. I'm taking deep breathes. The feeling of nothing matters.. Feels good.
It's all a dream. It's all stories each of us tell ourselves. All the fight for position, the seeking of recognition, the the waiting to be trusted n understood, the fight to do good for people..
All doesn't matters at this very moment. It's me and myself now.
N bear. ( who is perhaps just another projection of me in subconscious)
I was feeling kind of upset by brother bear's words earlier on. I am glad that Bird give me the chance to express my disappointment to brother bear so that it won't transform into anger. He is right. I didn Realise it's simply disappointment. I'm touched that Bird understand my feelings.
Well now sitting on bed after trying to find my tea candles to lit up my burner for the essential oil too soothe my mood. ( didn manage to find any) n this time I learn to let go n just sit on bed hugging My fur bear. Staring into the darkness, suddenly I'm aware of the sound of the fan, the ticking of the clock, the occasion sound of car engines and mostly sound of the night.
I kind of appreciate n love this feeling. I love how bear melts my tension. Makes me feel loving n kind. I'm taking deep breathes. The feeling of nothing matters.. Feels good.
It's all a dream. It's all stories each of us tell ourselves. All the fight for position, the seeking of recognition, the the waiting to be trusted n understood, the fight to do good for people..
All doesn't matters at this very moment. It's me and myself now.
N bear. ( who is perhaps just another projection of me in subconscious)
Sunday, January 29, 2012
My self indulgence cover letter
I wrote something today while keeping quiet beside Bird, trying to read. And perhaps Bird is right. I just have to talk and when I cant talk to Bird. I quietly talk to myself and hence for almost everytime I try to keep quiet n read beside Bird. I ended up writing. haha
so here's a little indulgence:
Wrote this while reading a book by Seth Godin titled we r all weird.. And also inspired by my conversation with my bro last night. Its a little edgy, self centered n funny but who knows maybe this is just what people want to fall in love with haha. This maybe some sort of self indulgence but seriously feels great doing it! Hahaha n who knows really hehe n I certainly apply what I learn from Steve jobs: repeat ur key point 3 times. Start, middle and end. Hahahaha in this case "I'm a designer"
I'm a designer. I don't believe in accumulating a portfolio of works to exhibit. Neither do I believe in the over rated term ;"unique idea". To put it simply, I believe in what works.
Ideas don't have to be unique. They just need to click; to tell a story that people would not just believe but can't wait to share. This is what makes me a designer.
I'm not an artist. Don't get me wrong. I have great respect for artists and a lover for arts. Art is created to be appreciated. And I sincerely do. But I love design more.
Life is short and like it or not; I'm not born with very good patience. So instead of waiting for a passerby to appreciate my work. Maybe one in a hundred or a thousand. I take the practical approach; I make some noise, I talk to people and share with them how they could get things done n have a group of followers and be appreciated.
Is my approach unique? You would be too good to be fooled if u say yes. No. It isn't. But the truth is everyone love to be connected and appreciated.
Am I trying to be different?
Nope. On contrary, i'm just being ordinary. All I did was reach out to people. To share with them how ordinary I'm and how much I can relate to them so much so that I can offer my understanding to provide ideas and solution to their challenges.
I'm a designer. I design this letter with love n truth.
I'm a designer. I don't believe in accumulating a portfolio of works to exhibit. Neither do I believe in the over rated term ;"unique idea". To put it simply, I believe in what works.
Ideas don't have to be unique. They just need to click; to tell a story that people would not just believe but can't wait to share. This is what makes me a designer.
I'm not an artist. Don't get me wrong. I have great respect for artists and a lover for arts. Art is created to be appreciated. And I sincerely do. But I love design more.
Life is short and like it or not; I'm not born with very good patience. So instead of waiting for a passerby to appreciate my work. Maybe one in a hundred or a thousand. I take the practical approach; I make some noise, I talk to people and share with them how they could get things done n have a group of followers and be appreciated.
Is my approach unique? You would be too good to be fooled if u say yes. No. It isn't. But the truth is everyone love to be connected and appreciated.
Am I trying to be different?
Nope. On contrary, i'm just being ordinary. All I did was reach out to people. To share with them how ordinary I'm and how much I can relate to them so much so that I can offer my understanding to provide ideas and solution to their challenges.
I'm a designer. I design this letter with love n truth.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Reflection
Today is kind of a bonding time with my bro. We chat on the bus n catch two movies n sit around his hideout in the neighbourhood, talk about my career, his portfolio and his career. Interestingly, it seems I'm kind of the pivotal of my bro's life in some small ways. First it's probably seeing me studying design that got him interested in it n opted in as well n then he just told me his first time in contact with illustrator software is when I threw him 50 animals to trace! Wow I vaguely remember that. Don't remember what are those animals for. N from there he got a prior lesson before his mates n get to perform better in schools. I didn Realise that n I'm proud of him remember this:) As he is sharing with me of his worries of not bring called for interviews, I gave him a statement. One that perhaps I'm wow n still mastering. "sometimes we just have to know tht everything will eventually fall into place" Something I learnt from bird. N joining the dots back.. I do find it amazingly true. How I was worried about my career, n then I got into a company who somehow fit my lifestyle n love n though not dramatic monetary progress, I know I have done a fair bit.
There is nothing really right or wrong. It is all a matter of choice, responsibility n situation.
There is nothing really right or wrong. It is all a matter of choice, responsibility n situation.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Sunset meeting with the bird n the bear
Meet up with black bear with bird! Oh the tiniest in size! I'm the bee hehehe:) had a good dinner of pizza in a quiet place! It's nice time catching up. N most of all black bear is like a mama outside of home. She gave advises, shared her views, lead us to look at grown up things to do! She is definitely happy for bird n bee union:) I love black bear's straightforwardness, bold action to reach objective, motherly welfare for people, practicality and some sense of humor if u catch it and mostly I do! So I'm good with black bear! Im glad she now appreciates the beauty of the blue sky and the elegance of the birds. Because as a bee, this opens so much window to share with her daily gem I found in nature:) just like these photos I attached here. They were taken just near her apartment as I waited for Bird to navigate his way to bear's home. So I was the bee in a sunflower dress roaming by the side of the road, circling a huge tree, snapping pictures of the leaves & trunks in the sunset. Lovely:)
Bee and Black Bear
Owl and Bee
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| my childhood stamp collection |
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Bird's stamp collection. hehe look what's the difference?! Mine is a collage of stamps.
Bird's a tidy placement of stamps! hehe
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| Bee love the tree barks!!! |
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| Bird and Bee |
Everyday is Valentine's Day is what matters
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| Chickie & Doogie |
Everyday is Valentine's Day is what matters!
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| Bird & Bee |
Found these pictures created some time ago! Cant remember if I ever posted here. hehe but it's lovely so here it is!
Bee's little escapade
Love the green, sun and blue sky!
Photos taken from my little escapade round my neighbourhood:) Nice time being alone:)
Love ones
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| my god mama! |
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| mama, dada & bee |
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| handsome bro! :P with bee |
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| Sis, Bee, Bro |
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| and this is the most valuable pic of the year!!! we have had a family portrait taken for years |
Done list and to do list:)
It's been quite a while since I blogged. Been busy yadda yadda.. so here finally I'm on leave! 2nd day in my leave. Didn't really do anything big. But here's it is:
1. Packed my desk, wardrobe, drawers, make space for books
2. Went to market with Mum, prepare for CNY food.
3. Cleaned the house.
4. Went visiting relatives.
5. Photo portraits with parents and family:) One thing that I'm really grateful for!
6. Met up with Hermie ( Crazy brainless talk, nice chill out time)
7. Did a weeny bit of reading on my iphone (Marketer are liars. I love the book! Hope I can get the hard copy! because reading from iphone is still somehow feel so hard to make notes!) oh and how I love marketing. or maybe it's a love hate situation. What I love about it; sharing the mission, vision, living to it and spreading to everyone.
8. Took a slow stroll in my neighbourhood, circling round a tree and took some amazing photos of nature.
9. Ran after a rainbow (as I wrote on previous post:)
10. Connect with my bro; listening to stories and sharing stories.
11. Looking through photo albums of tons of photos. And I'm loving it!
12. Painted my nails (Yellow mustard) Not perfect! but just for Fun!
So here's what I'm gonna do:
1. Gonna meet up with black bear and Birdie tonight
2. Tidy up some photos:)
3. Read something!
4. Review and write down past year achievements
5. Research and list to do stuffs for the big day
6. Visit Botanica garden/ Bird Park!
7. Meet up with Missy Tong (Some catch up time finally! Havent seen her for months!)
8. Catch up with Chickie (I'm really quite a people person, enjoying connecting with loved ones)
9. Fix my mini puzzle! (that I have been opening and closing the box) haha
10. lil soulbirds project
11. Write down plans for the year..at work and personal*** (a bonus; the brother bears are not around next week so I still get some time to do this even after leave is over) Just thought my leave should be dedicated to personal life for now. hehe
12. hmm celebrating early beeday with Mum.. thinking of bringing her to sentosa flower show.
Run with your heart
Rainbow rainbow!!! I finally get to witness these beautiful rainbow on two separate days! And lesson learn: Sometimes miracles happens when you least expected it so.
This is the best reward a full day of packing my room! Just as I was trying to snap a picture the colour of the sun for Bird to see, I saw a spot of colours through my phone screen. I thought I was using some filter in my phone apps. But I wasnt! and a closer look! I was elated! It's rainbow! Something I consider a miracle because it is that tiny gap of opportunity that one get to catch a glimpse of these colourful decoration of the sky. And I'm thankful that both the sun and bird have kind of lead me to this:)
And here's me in the train with my brother..as I suddenly spotted something like a rainbow across the sky as the train passes by one of my favourite place:) I asked my brother can I get off the train to see rainbow..he didn't reply me and before he know, I jumped out of the train and happily went trying to snap a picture of it. Next moment I asked him can I go down to the field to catch the rainbow. He nodded his head (by this time, it's a little black) I ran down to the open field; no more rainbow! It's already gone. But I'm happy nonetheless. Because I seen it, I run after it. I did all I could at that moment to chase after what I love. Yea. When you love something so much, you just run with your heart. And guess, that's bee:) It's not about whether we get it or not in the end, it's about taking that step in full blast, doing all you could to get it! That's the spirit!
So thank you rainbow:) thank you sun who lights form the rainbow:)
I'm glad to witness this little rainbow in that split moment:) A moment to remind me to appreciate each and every moment of life. For each moment is a miracle:) And most of all, when you love something so much, you go all out to get it!
Monday, January 23, 2012
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Happy Release!
Ok. I finally cleared off my pile of work (at least whatever phrase it is),
I'm finally easing my buzzing a little to rejuvenate!
And here's one happy Bee with people she loves so much! hehe
Having a feast @Little Part One Cafe! hehe Yeah celebrating my "accomplishment" of my last part of 2011! And here I'm looking forward to my long long long awaited off days (Yeah! brother bear asked me for talk after I finally untangle myself from the webs of rushing for the past days and the first thing is excitement, running after him with two pretty sheets of leave forms for him to sign)
Him signing the papers is such a bliss! You know like looking at the brother bear with a pocketful of wishes and looking at his hand on the papers doing "magic"!
So here I'm like a school kid looking forward for my "school holiday"
and like a dada, brother bear sounded like a worried dad who afraid the bee would gone too far in playing and forget everything about "homework"! Keep reminding me that I have to do this.. and that and this! haha
Seriously! Like a kid indeed, nothing of those really got into my mind once the forms are signed! I'm very focused! on my off days! Thinking who to meet and what to do to connect with myself:)
Monday, January 16, 2012
Lovely morning w Bird
It's a happy morning with sweet surprises from Bird & the universe..
I love my morning musing.. and feeling inspired by little personal projects in mind:)
Personal projects drive bee's energy:) Because it is those times where I can just grin silly at some things and naively do it out of nothing but pure heart and love from my soul:)
What makes bee happy
Bee is in some sort of roller coaster ride emotionally..
and somehow I just decided to write a list of things that makes me happy..
1. Being with Bird
2. browsing lovely blogs of crafts with personal touch
3. Going to nature
4. A neat desk area and organised living environment (I'm so gonna pack more and decorate a little)
5. Writing little notes of inspiration
6. When I can bring sparks to someone or things
7. Listening to some non main stream music (that brings me far far away from where I'm physically and mentally...far away so that I'm closer to me)
8. Handmade gifts (I'm not good at it, but I love it)
9. Shopping at lovely indie shop (stationary and notebooks made with love)
10. Sweet treats in tiny homemade style cafe
11. French movies
12. Sipping wine from a nice sparkling glass
13. Chocolate n scent of old books
14. Paper crafts
15. Lying in a private beach or some place far away from people in just bikini and the sun.
16. Ice cold beer in hot sun (Beers are for the sun, Wine are for the dark)
17. Being passionate about what I do
18. Snapping moments in pictures
19. I love my name and Birthdate
20. Orange and green
18. Snapping moments in pictures
19. I love my name and Birthdate
20. Orange and green
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Sunset with Bird
Sunset with Bird after work feels amazing!!!
and all these views just a stone's throw away from office:P
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