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The topic on Togetherness

Had an unintended chat with Bird.

Something just linked up and leads me to speak my mind, heart and soul 

about some stuffs that I have been trying so hard to cover up and brush it aside. 

Won't touch on what exactly the content of the chat is about. 

But just thought it's a good thing to note down that 

I finally speak up and out. And I feel good about it. 

My gist of the content is probably about togetherness.

Bee value togetherness a great lot because I believe togetherness with love is a powerful thing. 

Law of attraction? Universe's answering to us? 

Well I do not want to lock my mindset on any specific thing, but rather I would say I believe in belief and the power of love which is where the universe arises isn't it..or so I choose to believe.

With power combine, we can do great things!

Everything is a choice. Listen to a short portion of Steve Job's biography. And I really like the topic about abandoned and chosen. It illustrate perfectly well how unique we human are. We are given the gift to make a choice. We can change how we live and think our life. 

Bee has always be like a real bee, busy making things work, at work, at home and or trying to help people to make things work. Some say I do too much. Some question why I do what I do. 

I don't really have an answer for it. 

I just do. Because I believe we have a choice. If there is something that is not done when is needed to be done, I go ahead and do it. Most people misunderstand this trait of mine as being perfectionist. But I disagree. 

I'm just doing my all. I didn't expect the result to be perfect.

But at least I try. At least I do. 

I make a choice.

Most of us fall in and out of love. When things don't turn out fine, most people just dismissed as lack of love. But is that really so? Or is it lack of togetherness? How many parents, couples you have met still do things together? Things as simple as taking a walk in the park? Having a cup of tea? Reading a book together? Can we make a choice to ask our loved ones out for walk or tea? And can we make a choice to go for walk or tea when our loved ones asked us? 

It takes two to clap. And I think this applies to all relationship. Parents and children. Husband and wife. Brother and sister. Friend to friend. 

I always remind myself to do so. 

To live togetherness. 

I'm glad that I met Bird whom I can take a walk with, have tea with, watch the birds...that's so much we can do. Love and togetherness. Togetherness and love. As friends, we used to have dinners together, chat, have tea..and we begin to love each other's accompany more and more. We saw birds in pairs fly past together. And we find ourselves long to be the birds together. Hence, we find ourselves the soulbirds in us. 

Wish all who chanced upon this note, to love and be embraced in the togetherness:)

Life is short. Do not wait too long to make that choice.

An encounter with the ants

 

Aww I wonder what am I doing? Being so distracted and amused by the ants in such wee hour.

I have been really disturbed by ants crawling into my mug each morning
when I wake up. 

Natural response was to wait for them to go off..but they didn..so I began clearing it away. 

And somehow this morning, it occur to me maybe they just want to drink some water! I mean why else would ants keep crawling into my mug for. hmm..

So I did a little experiment this morning. I pour a droplet of water on my desk and see if they really come for the water. Result: Nope. I waited. But they didnt appear. 

So I dismissed it as me thinking too much. 

And giving them a drop of water doesnt help either of us.

Who knows..come night..

I was working on my stuffs at my computer with my usual mug on the table. 

Ants started queuing up again..reaching for my mug!

I didn't know what get onto me.. instead of feeling infuriated, I got really curious!

I poured another drop of water on my desk again. This time I tell myself, I shall stop looking at that drop of water. Maybe they will appear. 

And sure enough halfway through my work, I saw ants gathering at the edge of the droplet! 

So they are thirsty indeed!

hmm and I start to feel bad for clearing away some of their population! 

Maybe all they want is that drop of water! So communication is very very important!

And these ants seems to call their whole kampong of ants to come fetch water! more and more appear. 

Maybe in their world, they are thinking that finally they have found an oasis of water!

I poured another droplet and interestingly, the water formed a heart shape as it joins the first drop of water on the desk. Bird said that it's the ants telling me they love me! I never thought of that! I was thinking maybe that's my way of telling them I don't meant harm as long as they leave after finish drinking! n most of all, dont crawl into my mug! 

But I love to believe they love me! haha or rather they feel love! Because love is an amazing feeling of life and gratitude! So...... well! that's my encounter with the ants! And now Im hoping they wont come kissing me in the name of love! hahaha because they still crawled into my mug! and one actually found its way up my hand! hmmmm

Random love

Found this site as I was trying to get a fix on conceptualising a packaging for the headphone that I'm working on. And this sparks me up! yeah! Guess a designer needs some sort of sparks, vibe, out of the norm concoction to give that boost! Found fun party tunes here too. It's been a long time since I tune into any rnb hiphop stuffs! They just seems so boring, all the shaking and all. But once in a blue green while, like now, it gives a good vibe for work! and perhaps life. Yeah! I need such boost to remind me to just shake and take it easy. I would feel like partying if not for halloween night. But seems nowadays I only imagine myself partying at home. With great great wine, flashing dim orange light, great drum music n great accompany. Dream dream dream. Dream is free:)

And here's what I found from the site above. Shaking and working to it now. love her head band!

Tribal!!!

Good good morning!

The morning smells great and the sky is blue. Sun peeping through the leaves and branches, rays embracing the trees:) Our little fellows of the green hurry out to catch a sunbath. Birds singing, rejoice a new life with the sun.

Found this rango hugging the tree to get a little tan! it's cute!

Try to capture the sun ray! can you see them? hehe

sun blast! hehe loving this morning!

random memory

Found this picture while browsing pictures tag on fb. I look so young in this pic.. hehe

and it's just a matter of a year! I feel much older! haha n I kind of miss my long hair and Hermie!

I forget to text him goodbye when he left for his month long holiday! This picture was taken while I pathetically rush here and there in the rain to get last min present for hermie, my dear friend. 

It seems long that we didn really have crazy time together. I met but it just feel rushed or different. hmm

need to catch up with some dancing n wine I guess instead of talking about the "adult topics" eh. 

:)

I do look nice in long straight hair eh haha

random notes and sweeties

Had a sweet sweet evening:) So full of sweet stuffs! cake! waffle with icecream!
it's yummy! but lesson learnt; never eat too much sweet stuffs together! It's kind of overwhelming!
But I was just being a kid! pointing at everything that attracts me! And there are just so many!
*wink*
So speaking of living for the moment! Guess I did too! especially when following my craving and being a kid! Awwww Bird is on off and Bee gonna be so buzzy tomorrow! =_='
Looking forward to the weekends! and perhaps when the busy period is over!
Really need to get things done as I approach a different stage or segment of life! I would rather see it as a brand new exciting journey than me getting older! haha So if no one makes it interesting for me! I have to create some excitement and things to look forward to for myself!
Right or not, I think having something to look forward to and works towards to is a great feeling! Tough as it may be, but it makes life fulfilling!
Do not wait for anyone to fill your life.
Live it with your all.
I'm not a patient person. I dislike waiting unless I know what I'm waiting for. I like to be on the move. I like to have dreams and works towards it!
I love to share my emotions instantaneously!
I love to love and speak and live of love.
I may seems to be overwhelming! aggressive! but seriously,
I think I'm simply passionate and committed:)
Bee is writing to give myself some kick! some hope! some love!

So I'm indeed very in love

Love these images so much!! reminds me of how bee n bird first got together! perching on the window in the cold of the highland! kind of the first feeling of love connection for Bird. hehehe and the angel doggy made of little beads! thats the other moment I felt touched by Bird and feel the connection! When he surprised me with this little gift placed on clouds (made of cotton wool) and passed it to me in a bookstore while I was browsing away. That moment is still so sweetly in my memory:) n the swallows pictures from the tiny book about love.. reminds me of how we met those little pacific swallows that I so strongly believe it wink at me with a smirk on its face on the very first day bird told me that he feel we may be soulmates:) It's all amazing eh. Unbelievable but true. What are the chances we found in our life time the soulmates of ours. Maybe they are all around like angels but just whether we are tuned in to them. hmm n the magnetic poems! a mini gift from Bird! that makes me really happy! I love playing with words! n here it is me piecing the words on my pot!
*Lovely*

Wilderness within

Just realise one of my favourite band had disbanded early this year. Seems like I have lost track of dance music for a while. No dancing. No hopping. No crazy moshing around dance floor. Sometimes I think Bee might have a split personality. The wild and the homely. 

The wilderness deep within in such a childlike play.

Faithless is one of those music that make me feel free! yes! FREE! I can just flow with the music, the beats, the lyrics. The me within. 

It's a pity to hear the news of them disbanding. 

Especially when I didn get a chance to jump around in club with them spinning live. 

What I love about them:

Their beats just give the vibe and sensuality.

The lyrics ain't like typical brainless dance tunes. 

most of all, it sets me free and empower me in some weird ways:) 

So well..guess I'm gonna visit HMV and get a hardcopy of their album or albums.

Good thing may not last physically forever. But it remains in your heart and left a mark in your memory:)

Wonderful life

"Remember no man is a failure who has friends." - Angel Clarence

Got this from a lovely 1946 black and white movie that is absolutely rich and colourful titled 

"It's a wonderful life" 

Bird passed me this movie some long time ago. It's been lying in my computer ever since. 

And the reason of not remembering to watch it is perhaps what I have learnt from the show.

It's black and white. And I'm a designer who can't do without colours..or so I thought. Black and white film would have sounded plain to me. Just like how sometimes most of us would find our life so dull with work and work, simply tasting like black and white. And so we thought. But this show is no black and white at all. It's so colourful. In fact when Bird called me and see how am I into the show..

these words came to me

"I almost don't remember it's black and white at all."

It doesn't bother me. In fact, the show is colourful! Inspiring. Lovely! Wonderful:)

So is our life. Sometimes we got trapped our own story and just can't see a single light upon us nor can we see the light we have shone on others. 

I'm like this today. I got caught up with trying to make things work, trying to come up with something breakthrough concept design for christmas season. I want to give it life and meaning than just a paper bag..than just a tagline "Christmas joy". I feel that I have to share it, give it. Because if I'm not truthful about my design, no one would be able to feel it and believe in the magic and beauty of giving and joy of Christmas. So I fought. I fought hard with myself. For the past few days, I'm been dreaming of parts and pieces of things from work..perhaps trying to get something done even when I sleep. 

But I got nothing done. I just broke down today. 

I can't see a single clue of light. I have no faith in what could bring me. 

And it's only upon much encouragement from Bird to watch the show. That I finally put other searches of possible Christmas ideas aside and watch the show. 

What I learn from the show:

Just listen to your heart and have huge heart.

Give. (Even if you think you have nothing, just give) 

It is not what you have to give, but what you do to give.

Have faith. 

You are never alone. 

You are connected to so many people around. 

Your worth is nothing but your life and how you enrich others' life

Not all Guardian angels have wings. 

Let others help you. 

Trust that somehow everything will be alright. 

There will always be an angel guiding you.

Sometimes by saving others, you save yourself.

No man is a failure who has friends.

Each bell rings signifies an angel get their wings:)

And after I minimise the movie window, here's what I see.

Christmas stuffs in a blog all about Christmas

http://naughty-or-nic3.tumblr.com/

 And a few more blogs on Christmas:)

This is my angel showing the light?! 

:)

Little paper birdie

Bird has an inspiration. And bee creates it in my hands.
It's lovely to hear Bird mention the idea of folding and giving away each of this little paper bird away as a gift and blessing during our special day:) The kind of little thing that melts me and fill me with sweetness like hunny. So filled with hunny, I just spontaneously dug into my bag for paper to fold a bird but I didn't have my notebook with me. All I have were scraps of paper I printed out for reference. So here I'm using my matrix card to cut the paper and folded it as precise as bee can get. I didn't have good memory of how a paper bird is formed but somehow my hands just follow naturally as if there is an energy guiding me to fold it and get a beautiful little white bird like this!
I'm kind of proud of myself and totally in my own world. Bringing the little bird so delicately up in the sky and down in the little leaves and flowers for taking picture.
And of course! it's the first thing I pass to Bird when I step in office. I would really love to give Bird a big hug. But being in office, I learn to be discreet:)
My love is huge here!

Walk with the bird

Birds

This is the flock of birds that I was so amazed at. Flying above and across us in a formation that looks like a huge Bird! Didn't manage to capture a full shot..but this is good enough:)

Something to help me recall next time about once there was a flock of birds flew past my head..

Little beauty:)

Morning sun! huge above 

Small and lovely with so much life

Little pretty flowers

Letting go

Saw this little moth outside the bus window. It seems to be holding on to the glass with all its might. Is it trying to hitch a ride? Is it stuck? or is it here for a reason? It was hanging there for about 3/4 of my bus journey, going against the wind as the bus sped. The wings seems like they are gonna flipped over anytime. But it is still there.

It eventually flew off and at the moment it kind of make me learn a lesson about letting go. Hmm it could just let go n go with the wind.. Instead of holding on tight w all it's might.. Hmm or maybe it's trying to tell me not to hold to everything so tightly.. Let go.. Go with the flow hmm

Bird and Bee necklace

Bird and Bee necklace that we get someone to put together for us. 

Interestingly, Bee is placed hovering above the Bird! haha 

Bird.. you just can't get away from Bee:)

This is by far, my most feminine necklace I ever have!

To the blue light

I'm having a little dream on this lazy Saturday afternoon. 

Journaling my experiences here has given me a great time to stay connected with the soul within. Some weeks ago, I had a dream that pointed me to go to where the blue portion of the map is..

It's a beautiful dream, perhaps the most beautiful dream I ever have as far as I remember. 

A series of experiences have led me to a place, named Lapland in Finland.

Perhaps that is where the blue is. 

Since then, I have been having Lapland in mind, in search of more information about traveling there and getting around. I have never travel that far away from the equator. So this certainly means an adventure! It isn't a contemplation to travel there. It's perhaps a matter of time and chance. I will get there somehow. Soon. I just knew it. Because the feeling is strong.

Have found a number of links about Lapland and from which I found some interesting photos below.

Those beautiful colours I painted have appear here again:)

The blue light? The blue portion of the map? :)

http://www.lightsoverlapland.com/about

http://www.lapland-travel-info.com/

http://www.nellim.fi/index.html

http://www.trylapland.com/index.htm

*oh and I have been listening to this song "We all fall in love sometimes" by Jeff Buckley:) Setting my Saturday in a slow and peaceful mood. And yea.. we all fall in love sometimes. be it with people we met, know, places we been or dream.

Round cat

 

random hyping

It's a tiring day..but fulfilling at the same time too. Just before I end today and head to bed, I just have to note this down:

Bird gave everyone a hug after a day's coaching because he think that everyone who has attended a 12 hours plus sessions of coaching, needs a hug. It was such a random act. 

When Bird put me in the front line and hug me first and ask us all to hug one another. I was just too stunned by Bird. Anyway, to make it a short note here. 

That hug means a great lot to me. 

And I just cant wait to share with Bird how I felt which I did. 

But like always Bee feels alittle lonely being hyping about a hug when Bird seems stoned by my response. So I just want to note it down here to remember that warmth. So that I won't get cold with Bird's nature of aloofness. 

And by any chance Bird, you are reading this. 

Thank you.

I love you.

Random rambling

Today has been a busy buzzy day of clearing works but yet doesnt seems to be productive..which I think it's not totally due to myself. Some scheduled work gotta change and I probably have to be like a chameleon; transform myself into a photographer once again. 

Anyway, met up with my happy pill, like what I always love to call him. My dearest friend, my diary, my happy pill when I need to be more chilled and less uptight. Didn't expect to stay out chatting till late, but well guess it's been a long time since we have just time alone, just two of us. We talked about our dream, our fear, our love, our passion, our happiness literally under the moon. (A breezy outdoor seating outside a library with a moon up high) Just being human. Ordinary human. 

Sometimes trust is the most important thing. And guess it is also something that most people seems to neglect. Trust is not something that is supposed to be given. Trust is to be earned through understanding and perhaps alittle lesser on what you think trust is, but more on what can you do to have someone's trust. Guess, interestingly, with happy pill, I would not say that I would trust fully and that's alright. But somehow I know I can just pour my heart out and speak being an ordinary human with ordinary needs and wants and perhaps trust that whether agree or disagree, happy pill will try to put himself in my position and look into how I feel. (Which is exactly what I need sometimes, knowing that someone is doing his/her best to be with you, to understand how you feel and why you do certain things.)

So well, that's perhaps what I need for this evening. 

Anyway, I was telling happy pill about my dreams and a series of interesting encounters which lead me to be dreaming about going to a place far far away. Happy pill was laughing so much with a stoic face, thinking that I must be mad to go to a very very cold country all by myself with weather that I has never experienced before and saying that am I going there to dig my own grave in the snow. haha.

I thought that is hilarious. 

Because seriously, I never really imagine and think that much about what I will encounter. I only know it seems to be drawing me towards it so intently.

So one thing I learnt: 

I don't plan to fail, neither do I plan to win.

In all that I do,

I just do my best.

breakie surprise

Learnt something new today: 

Bird loves eating Tarts when sick:)

Got Bird tarts today and glad that made a little sweet surprise:)

But awww Bee is too buzzy, forget to snap a picture of my lovely tarts! 

They are in my tummy before I knew it! 

aww..what a gluttony! 

Trust that there will be light

randomness that makes me smile:)

Reflection

Sun and its reflection

Sunset stroll

Love these images.. a good example of just following my heart. After an afternoon walking in the zoo.. bee is still buzzing! hype on more walks! more exploration! So we dropped off a bus randomly and idea sparks.. I decided to bring Bird into a place I spotted from the bus everyday to work. It's a path along a canal..that seems to lead to a mysterious bend at a corner which arouse bee's buzzing curiousity every morning I look out of the bus window. We took a stroll..not knowing where we were heading to. Just stroll. The sky is amazing with the sun setting and image of such beautiful scene reflected on the peaceful water, creating a perfect tapestry of life and nature. Its so quiet strolling. Seen a number of people jogging, strolling slowly, breathing in life and its essence while embracing the views and soak up in the universe's creation. It's lovely to see old couple chatting quietly, strolling along such nice scenery. It's a simple place, but its simplicity has drawn my soul to be as one with it. And the biggest and most exciting happening here is when Bee spotted a huge flock of white birds low flying across the sky in a formation that seems to form a even larger white bird against the blue sky.
Bee is taken aback, amazed, surprised, joyful, excited......
though didn't manage to snap a picture of it.. but that feeling at the moment has already left a mark in my mind and heart. Nothing can compare to that excitement at that very moment. I feel like a kid! Totally bewildered!
Sometimes the best things happen at the strangest place when you least expected them.