My journey

Had an unexpected interesting journey yesterday.

Here are some lessons learn through the day:

1. Recollection and connection - 

Sometimes it doesn't matter how far we have gone or how long we have not meet up with someone. We just keep them in our hearts. And a simple text shows a great lot of care.

Went to Jurong to settle some stuffs at a bank. It's been a long long time since I took bus to that estate though it's really pretty near my place. I arrive there, feeling quite alienated. Walked into the estate, looking for the bank. Passed by a row of shops and suddenly someone pop into my mind. A close friend during my secondary school days. Those days we hang out there after school. Decided to text the friend whom I haven't seen in at least 4 to 5 years. 

2. We can choose the perspective to look at things for the better. Loving and believing in what you can do creates wonder and make things possible.

Roam around the estate like a tourists and decided to go take a look at the library. It's nicely lit up with see through glasses around the building which means readers can look out to the nature lights while reading. Lovely:) I endup sat between rows of shelvings, browsing through some retail design books. And I just love what I do. Love being in the retail design scene. It's something that a designer do that has a direct impact on business and people. Something more than design on paper, but designing an experience. Inspiration pours in. Instead of being pissed with my other little brother monkey for doing a half baked renovation because of budget constraints. I picked myself up and browse through books to think of a way to make everything pretty within budgets.

3. Everyone needs some forms of gratification whether we know it or not. It's alright. When we accept the fact that no one is perfect, we become a better person. Remembering values is the key to each of our lives. 

Text brother bear a pic of a retail store in Stockholm selling headsets with ipod as demo. It feels nice being able to share things with Brother Bear. Something that gives me more energy. Though that awkwardness is still there, but I choose to not bother about it. Whatever done cant be undone. No point explaining or claiming right or wrong. It's not easy for me to do this as I dislike being misunderstood. But then again, I look into my values, my belief, my core. I do love Brother Bear. As much annoying he can get sometimes, he's like a little child who needs gratification. And that's also what I find him adorable and almost the one reason that pulls me back from exploding full blast. Because, whether we know it or not, do it or not, everyone of us seeks some form of gratification. And that's perfectly normal and alright. 

4. Appreciate little things. We can choose to enjoy life in our small little ways.

Hop on a bus, embark on a long journey to the east to find Bird. Took some pictures while on the bus, feel like I'm a tourist on a tour bus. Each leaf in the wind. Birds flying pass. Sunlight embracing everything. There are really to appreciate in nature. 

5. We can choose to be happy or in pain. Remembering love is the key. To give and open to receive.

Passed by an estate. Lots of memory. Some seems like just yesterday. A place which I dislike to be reminded of. A place of both sweet innocent and depressive moments. I used to feel my heart ache and anger rages for the unjustified moments. The place feels so familiar yet distant. Somehow it just doesn't matter anymore. Forgiven and forget? Hmm guess it's neither of that. It's perhaps more of a realization that nothing is forever and so does pain. Memory too will be gone one day we passed on. We can choose to be happy or in pain. I choose to be happy. I took on a different perspective at looking at those memory. Looking at all the ups and downs roller coaster rides in my life. I can't help but to let out a smirk, a smile on my face that wow! I really lived life! I lived my emotions. I lived love. I lived those moments. Instead of regrets of what can't be undone or explained, I appreciate what I can do and have now. I'm so glad that after all these ups and downs, I'm now well with doing what I enjoy, loving someone who I feel really great connection with. And loving many others; family, friends, colleagues, little birds and cats I meet. I'm thankful being loved by many too.

6. It's not about how close we are with someone. It's about what we do to be connected.

Meet Bird and took a bus to another estate to collect stuffs. It's interesting, passing by there is another set of memory. My poly days. Those journeys of roaming in school. And where I met Chickie. My dear friend, where we will always stick together. I will eat lunch at the canteen where she can eat vegetarian food. We are almost always out away from our other classmates. And oh one more person to remember here, Charles.  A dear little skinny lovely boy! Who is now happily married! wow! Time flies man! Used to stick to him to get information on deadlines, help me roll film into the film developing canister in the darkroom. I have never ever do it alone successfully. I'm always in lala land somehow and he will be the one who wake me up to meet deadlines. We werent really really chose because I'm just too much of a loner haha or sticking with Chickie. But he is a dear friend I remember fondly. I regret not attending his wedding. Now to think that, I should! Because for someone who didn keep in touch to invite me is really not easy! And this sparks me to attend another friend's engagement party on Xmas eve next month! Again, it was a surprise when he invite but I'm so glad that he did too. I used to think that it's awkward to attend someone's party when I'm not really close. But taking on a different perspective, from the view of the person who invite. Wow! he actually remember to invite me and share the joy though we don't see each other much.