Now

"If you can't change what happened, then change your perspective towards it. Change the habit, the routine, whatever that get you down."

"Don't dwell on what you can't change, live now not in the past."

"The only reality is now" 

- Many times, sufferings are brought upon us because either we are trapped in the past or living for the future. I'm a learner of this. I struggled to live in present. My mind fluctuate from past to future but almost seldom in the present moment. Guess it is something taught to us as we grow up...parents, teachers, society teach you to think of future, to dream a dream. Nothing wrong with it. But I'm beginning to feel the toll on my soul, body and mind. It's nice to have a dream..it's nice to be in the present moment too. Because the only reality is now. 

Now may not be always good but it's when you are at a real true moment with life.

I'm a realist as much as I'm a dreamer.

Living with residue of what happened lately make it harder to live in now.

Because it constantly remind me what had happened. 

Something that I struggle to accept and let go.

However, ironically it leaves me with no choice but to live in now because I can't change whatever happened and I can't predict what's next. 

It's hell of a trap that I can't get out from.

The only thing I can do is already done.

So all I can do now is to have faith in

"This too shall pass"

Be in now:

And do whatever I can do, enjoy presently.

If I uncontrollably sink into future:

Then perhaps think further, brighter that this difficult situation now is just a phrase, a fraction compared to the long future. 

So here's a list of things I'm gonna do:

- have a hair cut

- get work done

- read some books

- brainstorming on work

- connecting to the soul at teahouse

- get my eye brow trim

- sort out my portfolio

- paint t shirt or maybe even try shoes with dye

- have good sleep

- shop for a ring 

I'm grateful for:

- have work that allows me to explore

- to have people whom I care and care for me

- to have Bird of course who is by my side in the course of my high and low

- be able to be in tune of nature and witness the sun and moon

- being able to love and be loved