Random rambling

Today has been a busy buzzy day of clearing works but yet doesnt seems to be productive..which I think it's not totally due to myself. Some scheduled work gotta change and I probably have to be like a chameleon; transform myself into a photographer once again. 

Anyway, met up with my happy pill, like what I always love to call him. My dearest friend, my diary, my happy pill when I need to be more chilled and less uptight. Didn't expect to stay out chatting till late, but well guess it's been a long time since we have just time alone, just two of us. We talked about our dream, our fear, our love, our passion, our happiness literally under the moon. (A breezy outdoor seating outside a library with a moon up high) Just being human. Ordinary human. 

Sometimes trust is the most important thing. And guess it is also something that most people seems to neglect. Trust is not something that is supposed to be given. Trust is to be earned through understanding and perhaps alittle lesser on what you think trust is, but more on what can you do to have someone's trust. Guess, interestingly, with happy pill, I would not say that I would trust fully and that's alright. But somehow I know I can just pour my heart out and speak being an ordinary human with ordinary needs and wants and perhaps trust that whether agree or disagree, happy pill will try to put himself in my position and look into how I feel. (Which is exactly what I need sometimes, knowing that someone is doing his/her best to be with you, to understand how you feel and why you do certain things.)

So well, that's perhaps what I need for this evening. 

Anyway, I was telling happy pill about my dreams and a series of interesting encounters which lead me to be dreaming about going to a place far far away. Happy pill was laughing so much with a stoic face, thinking that I must be mad to go to a very very cold country all by myself with weather that I has never experienced before and saying that am I going there to dig my own grave in the snow. haha.

I thought that is hilarious. 

Because seriously, I never really imagine and think that much about what I will encounter. I only know it seems to be drawing me towards it so intently.

So one thing I learnt: 

I don't plan to fail, neither do I plan to win.

In all that I do,

I just do my best.