Soulbirds

my new love, brought to me by bird when we were in the bookstore :)

Do I believe in angels? Well I would say I do, but I always make it clear that I won't get obsessed with the idea of angels because I wanted to be in control of my life. But lately, guess I took a new perspective in a different angle with regards to this. I realise the more I want to be in control in my life, the more I put the idea of angels at the back of my mind. I'm actually perhaps "suffocating myself" softly, suppressing my thoughts, my words, my ideas, my love, my spirit and soul. I deny feeling guided, I resist the flow. I ran and hide. I tried to pick myself up, telling myself to be positive, to live to its fullest. But the more I set an ideal image to achieve, the more stress I compounded on myself. Instead of being positive, I ended up broke down when I thought I failed to be positive or pick myself up in time. It took me some time to be at ease with myself, to learn how to let go, how to view mistakes in a different light, how to be in tune to my inner voice. And I realize the key doesn't lies in whether angels really exist or not or do we listen to them at all. The key is how do we open our heart, mind, body and soul to a greater light and allow ourselves to trust and being in tune with the universe and its energy to guide pieces of us to one eventually. 

"Even if your life appears chaotic, be assured that chaos is often the first step in the transformation to a new awareness and higher consciousness."