Remain mindful is a key to be appreciative

I was reading kind of intensely in the train, on my way to the east to meet Bird for breakfast. Suddenly something rolled past me and took my eyes from my iPad. It was an indian woman who seated on a handicap mobile bike, apparently steer her bike wrongly and instead of moving front, it rolled back and hit onto another passenger. The passenger was kind to immediately reassure the woman that it's alright. The woman was with a man, I would assume its her husband who carry a plank and laid it on the gap between the platform n train door for the woman to ride her bike over the plank to he platform. Just at this point, the train door is closing n just within a few seconds, the door closes just as the man pick up the plank and move out and place the plank at the back of the woman. Through the whole process, she seems nonchalant to the man and everything around her. It's understandable. She rode fast ahead of the man as they probably heading out of the station. But as an observer, something stirs some thoughts and emotion in me. A visual of a man and woman holding hands strolling along a park appear in my mind. This seemingly small and simple gestures and so much. Imagine riding the mobility bike and not able to hold hand with the partner. I feel for it, for her, for that moment. Maybe I'm feeling too much. But that's a call to be appreciative for each and every moment and gestures with thankfulness and grace. How would the man feel when the woman riding fast ahead seemingly filled with resentment. Well I have to clarify that all this is simply a slice of my perspectives. But frankly, this moment, situation and perspective is common and could happen to anyone of us. What we do? It's tough to remain thankful when there is something not so nice happen to us. This is the truth, but it is also important to be conscious about how we hold our perspectives and how our reactions, actions could affect people, loved ones around us.

Life in rainbow

Have been finding it so hard to settle down and write even though ideas, thoughts, words have been popping in and out. Finally, I'm on leave. Long awaited. Though it's just a few days but sometimes all you need is just that few days to get away from things, responsibilities for others and be responsible for myself. Jump out of bed, paranoid about work, make some phone calls and texts to settle things. Go back to bed and can't sleep. Woke up to breakfast and reading papers. Started raining heavily as the sun comes out to join the fun. My mum was saying the weather is mad. I told her excitedly "that means there is chance for rainbow!" I don't know exactly why I love rainbow so much! I just get excited each time I see one, knowing each one is a miracle that I seen. 

Because rainbow is created only at that precise angle where the sun shines its light on the little droplets of moisture in earth's atmosphere.

It shows the beautiful colours in a spectrum of light which we don't usually see in light we experience. In fact, I google about rainbow and visibility and realise its a gift that human can see such beautiful colours because most animals can't, except birds!!! Birds could see wider range of colors than us!! aww that is getting me sooo excited!!! And Im thankful that Birds can see colours because if not, they wouldn't know the beauty of their feathers eh. We tends to forget the gifts we have as human and not able to see our true power and beauty within. It is always here. We are born with gifts, it is up to us to unwrap each gift and let it shine. 

Speaking of rainbow, I used to look for it and hope I could see one. I will look up the sky and wonder where are the rainbow. How come I don't see one. I will feel disappointed when it seems everyone sees it except me and when I really do see one, I hope it could last longer. Or there are times when I literally run after a rainbow, trying to catch a better glimpse of it, but by the time, I reach there, its gone. I was disappointed once again. 

However, what I really miss is not the rainbow. What I really miss is living, life, miracles because beauty of rainbow exists in me. 

It is a gift that I am born to be able to witness rainbows. 

Each of us is like a light. We are made of beautiful colors. 

We can choose to recognize our colors, our gifts and let it shine.

There is no need to be disappointed where everyone sees it except me. Because the rainbow already exist in us, in the things we see, in our perspectives of things, in the life we touch. 

There is no need to wish it lasts longer because we can choose to let our "rainbow" shines, paint a beautiful picture and let our beauty lasts as long as we want.

There is no need to chase after rainbow because it is here. It has always been. 

Well,  I didn't see rainbow in the sky today. But as I look up, here's a beautiful sun rays shining through the dark clouds, shining its glorious beauty upon us. I wonder how many have witness this moment? Are we getting too used to being too busy to look up the sky and marvel at its grandeur? How many things have we missed when we are busy making things happen? 

This reminds me of a line in the song "Beautiful boy" by John Lennon; 

"Life is just what happens to you,

While your busy making other plans,"

Something to remember

Woke up from a nightmare that get on my nerves.. How do I transform this force to usable energy? This is the question I been asking myself as I walk out of my house. How do you understand your needs and exactly how you should address to it?

Well this is what I do:
Wear dress with colour close to nature; white and green
Wear something handmade ( necklace to add on feathers, the loud colour brightens up my mood alittle)
Recall the energy I garner in a walk. Remember the speed Im walking. Keep walking n get on the same pace at that moment that makes me feel whole.
Have faith and trust that there is a compass in my core that will lead me on a path where I need n best at this very moment.
I can choose my perspectives. Or even create new ones.
I understand myself and to soothe my mind, I need to listen to the movement of my compass n feel the alignment to my heart. I will know what to do.
Everything is alright as they are.
If this situation and moment feel challenging, that's because I'm like a caterpillar that's on the verge to fly out of my cocoon.
I am in control as much as I want, it all depends on how I work around and through those thick layers of cluttered mind.
I love myself and this love is enough to make me whole. I don't need any gratification from anyone else.
I have the gifts n strengths to empower. And empowerment begins from my core with my heart

random

I need to learn how to relax..and let my mind eases...
Stop holding myself responsible for every damn things.
Need a no plan, no agenda day
Need a massage/ retail therapy
Good sashimi
Good cooling weather
Breathe
Watch drama (yea korean drama is kind of brainless and yap blank)
Continue drawing mind map.. get a multicolor pen and decorate it
Write my profile, make some links
Drink some flora tea

On track

So I'm giving myself a tough time these couple of days, feeling like a dormant volcano that cant contain itself any much longer. Energy is welling up into balls of fire that just have to be transformed into some form of art before I get burnt out by these overwhelming emotions.

Suddenly I'm in a mood of:

1. Shopping for a man's watch for myself! The tougher the better. Tough metal and sexy cut.
2. Shopping for a Kate Spade bag! haha Have been convincing myself that I don't need one but since I'm just writing here and it doesn't cost a single cent to wish and be vain in writing so here it is.
3. Buy some junks of chains to weave my dried leaves and seeds together.  Got the stuffs!
4. Drink some red and white wine and chill out somewhere.
5. Write a letter of appreciation for myself
6. Write a letter of recommendation for my boss (tell him the vision thing is passe, its gonna be action)
7. Get some weird colour eye shadows (Olive green, black purple, hot pink, mustard yellow)
8. Splashing paint on T shirt and cut holes from it.  Yeah cut up a hand painted T shirt!
9. Wear high heels
10. Collect watches and swiss knives!
11. Be a modelYeah model for Bird in my hand painted and cut T today!
12. Draw some nudes
13. Get a red err or maybe purple moleskin notebook Got a red notebook! no moleskin since they don't have soft red cover. But yea the red is beautiful nonetheless:)
14. Do different things, designs based on my name. Because I'm special and I love my name.
15. Shatter some glass and make it into a piece of art
16. Twist some metal wire
17. Design a programme called "MindGATE crasher" - empower people to crash the gate of their mind to free their soul and live true connected to their heart.
18. Go dancing! or rather jumping on the dance floor

Thankful Monday:)

What are the chances of finding saga seeds on office desk early in the morning?! Well yeah here's a lovely saga seed still in its pod, placed by Bird so gently on my desk! Certainly perks up my Monday morning! Had an almost sleepless night..drifting in and out of some thoughts, seemingly approaching some tipping point but kit couldn't quite grasp it. Something is telling me something, maybe something in me is growing. And I could not hold myself in silence any more, some great power gotta shine, like how the morning sun rays pierce through the curtains. Listening to some lovely love songs found by Bird! I'm certainly in a mood of love and dreams! Well before going to another not so exciting meeting, here's me saying thanks to lovely things and people in my life; thank you all for being around with me, the birds in the sky and my dear owl. Thank you for lovely songs and corn soup in a bird's mug:) can't wait to get a bottle to place those seeds and acorns we collected! Thank you for sun light and blue sky:)
Be the change I want to see:) It's time!

We have the power to choose

There is something that perhaps give a false sense of security about following a routine and a set of patterns and habits. We human, like it or not, we are pretty habitual animals. We are good at establishing habits and following it consistently. Well I must admit, at some point, following a habit seems like the most convenient thing to do and perhaps the most time efficient thing. But how do we assure we are not trapped by patterns we established ourselves?
I realise most of my fears arise from patterns, from memories of how certain things could turn out to be based on past experiences which my mind seems to automatically sweep it into some set of patterns. There seems to have something like an activator of fear from each of these patterns.

Patterns are perhaps crafted from our different levels of fear and beliefs. If we could switch our mindset and change a perspective, we may notice pattern is there because we fear. I saw someone recently which reminded me of how fragile I was, how powerless I could be, how deep hurts could bring, how trust could be played out. It certainly stings. I remember that sting, I suddenly find myself scared of being caught in those same patterns. I certainly didn't want to feel powerless, ugly and unloved. The patterns repeat in my mind, the fear increases. And at some point, I made a conscious choice to say it's enough. I stood up for myself this time round. Why do I have to succumb to some sort of pattern that my mind wired up itself with memories of pain. Because undeniably, as the word pain could be felt, it's usually deep and sharp, which means definitely unforgettable in some ways. So it's only natural for the brain to wired itself up something unforgettable. But why do I have to take my mind so seriously when ultimately I'm the master of it. I have the power to hold it, empower it and of course setting it free from these patterns. Yes I made an conscious choice. I love, I give love to my mind from my heart. I called upon the energy of love. Because just as I know fear, I know love too. So why don't I let them meet and perhaps greet each other with grace instead of letting one hurting the other. I choose love. I felt loved. And most importantly, I know as much as I could be powerless and fragile, I have a heart of love to give. I choose to be love and to love, instead of being fear and be afraid.

Home

I'm not a city lover but there is something about the night skyline of a city that captivates me so quietly. And this seems to happen no matter where I am. I remember once I was staying in an apartment in Hongkong, one situated above a shopping mall and overlooking several layers of highways or we call it flyovers here. I couldn't sleep and didn't really want to watch TV, so I look out of the window and was captivated by the familiarity in that unfamiliarity. Sounds paradoxical? Well, I'm not trying to be profound or doing a word play here. But simply, it is a feeling that I can't find proper words to describe or is it even an emotion that I'm feeling? I'm not exactly sure about it. But the night skyline soothes me for the first few nights in a unfamiliar place. The lights, the seemingly ceaseless traffics event till late nights, the quiet sound of traffic, the speed, the road lamps seems to lit up like stars in the dark sky. The tall buildings still brightly lit, the residential homes that seems so filled with activity still. And most of all, it leads me to something familiar; home. It reminds me of times at home after work, eating dinner, watching Tv, taking a shower, talks on daily happenings. Did I miss home so much that I seems to see these familiar routines in those homes that still brightly lit up across where I stay? Maybe. I must say it's comforting.

Well what inspires this post was my journey home earlier across a flyover that oversee a beautiful skyline of Singapore, especially with the new garden by the bay. I was impressed by the design of the garden in the city and the diversity it carefully designed, though perhaps not so naturally placed together. The art science museum, the flyer, the casino, the club on a floating platform, the park and hotel. It's so beautiful that despite the fact that I have passed by that flyover several times and was pretty engaged reading a book, I just had to look up and marvel at that grandeur of the night skyline. The lights of the architectures that accentuates the beauty. Somehow the moment reminds me of my gratitude for being a citizen of this place each time before the plane landed on this home ground. No matter how nice it is to be somewhere else for holiday or work. The moments that perhaps I seldom share with anyone; it's a moment of excitement just before the planes touches down and the sight of Changi Airport, the clear night sky, the lined trees, the brightness of the lamps along the road side. It's at this moment, that I'm so glad that I'm home and proud to be here. For all its flaws, there is something so unique about this small island. Or perhaps it's simply because it's home.

I love love love

Good morning!
I love these pictures!
I love my bird!
I love my sandwich breakfast though I miss my bacons! ( the person give me ham and egg instead of double bacons.. Maybe I'm just not meant to eat those)
I love birds chirping so beautifully this morning
I love my orange juice!
I love my new dress and Bird's new shirt! N Loveliest of all, my dress and his shirt seems to be pretty matching! Aww I want a photo of us!
I love looking forward to meeting my very very busy chickie! N head tithe "jungle"! Hehe
I love browsing sweet blogs that me dreaming of our new home!
I love there is some progress.. Bird n bee's parents gotta meet.
I love how my dad is eager to meet and doing calculation of tables for our dinner. Though I'm still amazed by his number of friends! Haha
I love how I stand sillily in front I those dumpling, watching them but didn know how to steam it to bring to work!
I love how bird n bee are dumb n dumber!
I love reading my little pocket books!
I love my own little cca project with Gozi! N looking forward to play in studio for our very first photohoot of ummm none other but us!
I love the idea of wearing red t shirt with our logo! Though I would prefer tank top ( I'm fantasizing cutting the sleeves off already!) oops!
I love being alive! N jumpy!
I love having no boss around me to watch me work!
I love doing whatever I want to do!
I love my sprouts n plants in different pots!
I love the fact that I'm going on leave and we have some idea for our photo shoot ( though I'm a little disappointed for my 2 weeks leave getting a discount to one week!)
I love there is some hope of going on holiday with my poodipoodi nurse in oct!!
I love not exactly knowing where we are going because it gives us space to dream of more places (Bali, Melbourne etc... I'm secretly imagining new Zealand or drinking beer in germany, photographing in London but that will burn our pockets, Sweden n Finland maybe have to wait) but anyway anyhow! I'm happy as long as I'm gg on two weeks leave straight away from work!
I love I'm dreaming of year end, not for bonus but perhaps for a new year!
I love dreaming of eating seafood by the beach feeling free during our holiday! Blue sky! Cool sun!
I love I love I love!

Good Sunday!

It's been a good hot sunny Sunday! Here's alittle of what I have done so far:
Had a good sleep. Wake up to sunny weather and the cute Dino pic from Gozi!
Had cold shower and handmade dumpling by mum!
Browse few lovely blogs.
Saw the birds in nest pictures by Bird!
Started writing or trying to write Gozi Bee's story
Lunch with mum (yeah I eat alot when I'm at home)
Continue writing! Bubbles flying! Bee is high! Watched videos by walk off the earth! Perfect to get me into a lalala land mode to do whatever feels great!
Eat a juicy slice of watermelon like a kid! Because I was trying to multi task and endup with water melon juice on face because I'm too lazy to hold up the slice to munch. I dug my head into the water melon from the container.
Browse some blogs Gozi sent me! Lovely pictures and caught one which get me dreaming of one day having a home office like it; simple, neat, small setup doing what we love and inspiring everyone to live joy now! Oh and **brilliant thing is I text Gozi about my dream" she actually have the same thought!! That's simply awesome!
Continue my writing while munching some kiddo old school sweet flower cookies and lalala finally completes it and loving it!
It's good to feel great about what we are doing isn't!? Hehe
Receives a text from an ex colleague more like "fairy god mother" to me, she has changed our conversation group of me, Bird and her to titled "life? Love? Passion?"!! Wow! That's exactly what bird and I have been talking about, playing with and totally excited about! Synchronicity?! Yeah!! Or Yeahey!!! Hehe Bird's favourite energizer line! I love it!

Flowers sunshine

Bird surprise bee with these beautiful flowers while we were having dinner. These really lit me up! Bird has a way to make me smile and bring me little delights:)

Random

Sometimes we get consumed by our mind and all that's in our mind are moments of the past. It's a conscious effort to make it through till it become effortless.

Soulbirds found birdie nest!

Birds are created on this earth to remind human of
1) Possibilities. If small beings like birds can lift themselves and glide in the sky, there is a vast possibilities human can create and live with our energy and beings.
2) Lightness of the heart. No matter how high up we are, we must always live with a light heart because freedom does not lies in the flight itself but in the ability to let the wings take us in the wind.
So Happy Birds Day! And thank all birds who have been lifting my soul :)

Wrote this some time ago but didn't manage to jot it here till now. And today I found a nest with mummy and baby birds in it. I was thrilled! Mummy is really taking good care of the kiddo, sitting in the nest, watching over surrounding and the kids. It's my first time seeing nest with Birds!! Oh and I managed to get my Bird to marvel at the beauty of it together on the overhead bridge which also a special place for us both:) Bird got so thrilled that this moment helps him finally decide on getting a 35x zoom camera to take pic of the birds! Can you imagine in the whole universe, two silly person (at the same time beautiful in our own special ways I would say, haha) went roaming through the mall, looking for camera and asking people if we could use it immediately as we saw something we want to photograph. If this scene is from a story that I read, I be so excited!! So yeah! Im glad im in the story:) I'm with a man who can be so delighted by such simple beauty and looking out to capture the moment together.

"As the little bird flaps and spreads its wings, both our little hearts flutter as we leap with joy, eyes sparkle and give each other a hug of delight, love and awe." - probably one of my happiest moment in life - the moment where we leap together and the look on Bird's face is unforgettable! That delight and joy on the usually calm stoic face. Wow! In most of our journey together, we have been really honored and fortunate to be accompanied and lifted by birds of all sort. Swallows, sparrows, bluebird, green bird, eagle, long leg birds (which I have no idea what its name), "old wise birds".. well birds! our angels. There is probably no other better way to describe why our little space here is known as Soulbirds than this post here.

Our love n joy

Yea! My one and only sunflower sprout has grown to be pretty tall and slowly gain some "weight" and have a thicker stem to support itself. It's pretty amazing:) love to watch it grow by itself in just different direction every day it seems as it flows with whatever that let it lean when it's tired standing.
Oh and the pot with more sprouts is from Bird! Look at the loving heart shape thing he made to gently lift the leafy. Lifted with love. Isn't it so sweet?! That's my man! My owl! My love:) Interestingly, as I'm writing this away in the train, I saw this lady eyes closed with smile on her face. Aww what a lovely sight to see in the morning when most people look lifeless. Love her smile and wish her well:)
Well.. It's gonna be a lovely day. I'm excited about my new hobby! Well that word sounds kind of strange to me because I don't think I really have a hobby. Most of the time, I just flow and do whatever feels like good in the moment. And for most years, I love my work.. So my heart is generally put into work. However years into it, or maybe mid life revelation.. I have begun to yearn to do more things that really genuinely brings joy to myself and others. So yap! Here I'm.. I'm gonna enrol in ukulele class tonight! Woohoo! I love how such small and simple instrument could have such lovely sound:) sound that brings joy and in some cute way.. Romance too.

Alphabet game

Gozi and bee

Had a great morning while out having my thinking time. Words flow, I was enjoying thinking, writing and yes bliss, joy it is doing things that feel effortless and enjoyment. Wrote a speech about shopping. And some random ideas for kiddoforever. Yea feel great. Decided to pop in library children's session to join in story telling session. There is so much to learn from a story telling session. The energy, the expressions. Before I went in, I saw a book looking happily grinning at me on the shelf. I didn't pick it up immediately..because I'm gonna carry any books out of library since I have a stack of poster to carry. But the book who is named Happy.. Seems radiate itself at me. I went forward, pick it up. To my delight, the first article mentioned bluebird as a symbolism of happiness! Guess what, bird n me saw bluebird just the day before from a bus. Yea real blue bird with a white neck. Very very pretty! So yea, you have guessed it. I borrowed the book. Holding it in my hands, I pop in the children's session n wow!! Laying down on the low shelf just beside the entrance was a cute lovely book titled "the very greedy bee" haha big fat round bee! Of course I'm not looking forward to me turning that round. But it's cute! Haha I squat down and flipping through the book with a big grin on my face! I finished the book. It's a simple lovely book wot a good morale to share the good stuff! This is why I love children's book! It has some really simple good morale just within that few pages and best of all, it's accompanied by such lovely illustrations! Oh! I saw Gozi too! This book titled tinysauraus haha I love it! It is good to be small sometimes! It is!

let us be happy. n in bliss.

It's been awhile since I pick a card from the angels. It's nice connecting back again. 

Interestingly a card flew out as I was shuffling the deck. Turned it around, it shows "Transfomation". But what catches my eyes was the butterfly. I have been feeling that butterflies seems to fly around me. Just this morning, I saw this white butterfly fly around the flowers and seems to getting near to me. 

"Transformation happens naturally as we surrender to the flow of divine energies that gives life to all there is" 

Interestingly while looking for swallows related things, I chanced upon this "a symbol of fertility and renewal, a harbinger of good and a symbol of transformation. For the pilgrim to Mecca, the swallow is the symbol of constancy and faith, and is said to fly to that holy city each year."

Next card I picked was "Courage". Seems to be aligned with transformation eh. haha 

"All action inspired by a center of true love brings with itself security and firmness that cannot be disturbed. To be courageous is to know that fear offers no resistance to love."

This makes me feel so comforting. So taken care of just when my insecurity creeps in.

There have been this longing to watch Bird in total bliss and smiling simply because he is. I found that in photos he took somewhere. That smile, that carefree, laid back sense of joy. I long to be with Bird when he is experiencing such bliss. Well the fact is that I have this strange fear that Bee could get too heavy for Bird at some point with facts laid before us to manage. Yes yes it could be bee's over sensitivity or simply the super realist side of me thinking too much ahead.

"All action inspired by a center of true love brings with itself security and firmness that cannot be disturbed. To be courageous is to know that fear offers no resistance to love."  This reminds me to always have faith and trust in the greater energy.

 

Well the thing with this is we don't necessary have to make do with what we have and missed having a smile on the face. Bird told me it's the nature that made him smile. Of course. I would too. 

How many people give up something thinking that that is the only way to have something else.

My question is always, why can't we have both or design a new path to get to where we want to be. Well not that I'm being unrealistic, naive or greedy. But seriously why not. If nature makes us smile, then nature shall be it. Let smile now, tomorrow, forever. For that smile, we live. That smile is eternal. That soul is full. Never let anything or anyone to tell you that you have to give up something for something else. Set your goal of happiness and joy and let no one steal it away and tell you that it can only happen in a dream. Because everything starts from dream and dream shall take us beyond our imagination. Dream it. Live it with a smile. Your smile will lit up possibilities. Possibilities shall be your wings. 

For Bird, if you are reading this, I love to see you smile. That smile with abundance. The smile that is easy and natural. The smile that touch my heart in the first place. We don't necessarily have to work hard to get to some place. We just have to know we could do it. That moment is now.

Now is good and it can only be better. 

let us be happy. n in bliss.

This Loro n Dolce

Loro is name for the new cloth for my phone haha! Yes I'm naming! Simply because I'm happy n it has this parrot colors (Loro means parrot in Spanish) oh and that's Dolce, the real parrot my friend found in his lift and is happy keeping it now. Im looking forward to play with it on Sunday!

Bird says bee needs an adventure. I seriously feel so. Bee just need to play! Any moment bee is not hyper about something, it's feeling kind of under the weather. N my bubblebulb (my idea bulb which bird name is bubble bulb because I love bubbles) is getting smaller and smaller.

Water n dance

Listening to Moby's natural blues.. Been a while since I last listen to this.. Yea quite a long while but it suits my soul just well at the moment. Didn quite know why.. Maybe it simply flow with me like a swim. Just watch MIB.. It was meant to be more of a comedy.. But here it teaches me a lesson " every moment counts". Each moment is inter related to another and we are all in coexistence of one another no matter how much we may appeal to differ. Feel like being in a dance again. Read something today about not be the dancer but being the dance. Again my memory lost me. I didn remember where I read that part from but the statement resonates enough to stick with me after a day has gone by. Every moment we seen in others could be a reflection of ourselves. Can we be the dance and dance through it like water.

SongBird

aww this is making me so so happy and chirpy (despite my aching tooth)

SongBird by Ryan Montbleau Band

Sweet little songbird sitting on a wire, sing a fire from your belly so small. 

Sound waves 'a roll and the waves spread wide, you sing your song till it's six feet tall. 

Walkin', talkin', stalking down the side walk, wearin' cloth's standin side by side. 

Fly little song birds on to the next stop, you sing your song you look each other in the eye. 

Who ought to tell you not to sing your story? Who ought to tell that your singin' off key? 

You are the dance, you are not the dancer, you are the song, not the one who sings. 

Be-a-you-tiful song, songbird. Be-a-you-tiful song, songbird. Be-a-you-tiful song, songbird. 

And you tell me true. Tell me true. 

You know my trinny got the wild 'magination. He think they lookin' when he walk on by. He think the world is one big big mirror, he get upset and then he don't feel right. 

And he walkin', stalkin', stalkin' down the side walk, sporting cloths strutting stride by stride. I tell him trinny you are not what you consider, I stop 'em dead when I look 'em in the eye. 

I say, "Who ought to tell you not to sing your story? Who ought to tell that your singin' off key? 

You are the dance, you are not the dancer, you are the song, not the one who sings." 

Be-a-you-tiful song, songbird. Now Be-a-you-tiful song, songbird. Now Be-a-you-tiful song, songbird. 

And you tell me true. Tell me true. 

You get upset and then you don't feel, you don't feel right. You try to fly up straight and you fly uptight. You try to talk about life, like it's all an event... Life is the dancer, you are the dance. 

So be-a-you-tiful song, songbird. Now Be-a-you-tiful song, songbird. Now Be-a-you-tiful song, songbird.  

And you tell me true. Tell me true. Tell me true. Tell me true. Oh you tell me true, oh a beautiful songbird, beautiful songbird.

Life is beautiful

There have been so much going on my mind and heart lately.. so much so that I have been not journaling much here. Well to avoid missing noting anything from my forgetfulness, I thought maybe I just note it down here first:

1. Happy Cake Day that sparks seems to spread to many around me (unexpectedly) haha and that have kind of sparks into a project with a dear friend doing a cute little logo for it. I'm excited to getting it live and up, sparking more people to enjoy!

2. Live Joy now - Bee and Gozi have found their lovely 3 words!

3. Realise Science centre is so near my home and that I could well jog to the Mcdonald which is a pretty nice place. The one and only Mcdonald where I still see big displays of toys!

4. Got a new iphone casing which yes! I'm naming it loro! hehe because it inspires me of parrot's colourful feathers (loro means parrot in spanish) I simply adore the happy tone of the word.

5. As I organises my portfolio, I realise if anyone were to ask me what's my style of design, I would probably say "Happy style" or "Life is colourful, live happy", or well "I design happiness (you want a share of it?) "

6. A dear hermie friend found a parrot in his lift and is keeping it! Aww I'm excited!

7. Went on cycling on weekend evening and it is first time cycling with Birdie.
    Insights while cycling: Life is about looking forward, because sometimes looking too much into the past could trap us and make us fall. ( Because I was looking back while cycling and nearly flipped out of my bike haha)
Doing things effortlessly could well be the first step to success.

8. Had a coffee date with poo nurse, listening to her speaking of her patients and things going on makes me feel that every moment we are living is a gift, is a bonus. Maybe we should all try a different perspective of the word "Bonus". Bonus - lucky - Gift. (and not an entitlement of monetary values like how people have associated it to be)

9. BubbleBulb!

10. Life is beautiful.

Toss a penny

Am feeling exhausted n headache. Pop to tablet to relax muscles in the hope of being able to relax. Something which I have problem doing. Sounds silly but yes I don't know how to relax most of the time. Well maybe my mind champ over The drowsiness supposed to come with the tablet. But my mind refuse to slow down.. It's still on the move though i cant really focus in much. Flip a page of my "savior" book n saw this page thought its so true n relevant becos indeed at that moment where the penny is up in the sky, we would naturally Realise which side of tr penny we r hoping for.

I am

Rambling on reasons

Everyone has a reason behind what they do. Or perhaps the statement should be phrased in such a way; " Everyone can creates a reason for something"

If everyone has his/her reason to do something and everyone has different reasons, what do we do?

It doesn't help with everyone talks about their own reason and expecting others to accept. Because like what is mentioned before, everyone can weave different stories as a reason.

When everyone expect each other to understand their reason, that's when those beautiful stories known as reasons has a change of name "unreasonable".

Men have their reasons. Women have their reasons. Bosses have their reasons, employees have their reasons. Friends have their reasons. Everyone says they have a reason for doing certain thing. Deep beneath the sheep coat engraved with the word "reason", is a simple fact that everyone is telling themselves a story and to make sure they are not in a state of self deception, they tell the stories to others in a different name known as facts. Everyone is trying to sell stories as the ultimate truth.

Do reasons exist? How important are reasons? Maybe perhaps what we need is empathy for others instead of reasons. If reasons are fictional and a matter of perspectives, can we now try to tell story from another person's point of view? Feel their story, hear their hearts and be for once, in the moment with another person rather than selling the thing call "reasons"

Let's cut away the reasons, let's hear people out. Let's share our empathy for each other and feel more joy rising from our hearts.

This post is dedicated to a bird

Yes! This post is dedicated to a bird that sparks my morning with his beautiful singing:) I was walking with weary heavy steps as I heard a beautiful rhythmic voice singing away, I followed the singing and found this bird. (I googled and not sure if it's a bay backed Shrike) I stood there for awhile, enchanted by his singing. Though probably it isn't me that he is trying to attract. Haha. It leap from branch to branch, singing proudly into the sky:) awww it makes me smile!

In fact, it seems I shared such affinity with birds today. This morning before I got out of bed, not sure it's a dream but I heard birds singing so beautifully n loud near me. It was a sparrow. Not because I recognize the singing but somehow something in the dream drawn me to realize that is a sparrow.

As i was reflecting about my encounters with birds..somehow this quote "his eyes is on the sparrow" appear in my mind. And somehow I am feeling yes perhaps god or the universe is watching over me.

And as I hop on a cab, the uncle told me I'm his best customer of the morning because my perfume smell so nice:) especially when he encounter several man passengers who seems to carry an odor. Haha so I'm delighted to refreshes his senses. And at the same time I'm feeling good that somehow says such nice words to me:) hee
And before I alighted, the uncle wish me goodness in whatever I do and a good day:) of course I wish him too:)

It's a small gesture, but I'm feeling alive and loved. How often do we receive such blessing from a strangers? How often do we give such blessing to strangers, passerby of our life, people who stroll pass us in our life movie?

I'm thankful:) I am loved:) and I love you all.

Happy Mother's day

Happy Mother's Day:)

Had a good mellow day with mum in the west..visited two new malls. Shopping, trying clothes..and found good buy for just $6!!! That's a great deal. It's not exactly about the money sometimes but the fact that most things are over priced (because we don't really need it anyway) so to found a great deal is an exciting thrill (at least for me). Oh and ironically (though much appreciated), I'm the one shopping most of the day and mum bought me a $22 blouse when I didn't really have a present for Mother's day. Well that's why I love my mum! Because beyond all her talking about money and comparing my salary to her friend's daughter, she is really not that a money person deep down. And I didn't like to get a present purposely for an occasion when I have no strong idea what to get. Mainly, she is contented just having me accompanying her during this day for mothers. I take this seriously:) Every year, since the day I realize the importance of kinship and that life is unpredictable and most importantly, that parents really love us unconditionally, I have made a point to accompany my mum especially during such occasion. It has nothing to do with the success of someone who founded and so many others who branded Mother's day. Personally, it's a day to remember love and loved ones. It's easy to neglect, oversees our loved ones when we are in our midst of making sense of life and making life meaningful. So days like these is a good reminder and opportunity to be with our loved ones. 

I love how we took pictures of ourselves sitting in Franc Franc, eating frosty icecream and fries at Wendy's, trying clothes in one small fitting room, looking at durians, sharing fried kway teow and oyster omelet in hawker. Yap, it's simple pleasure of life being with my loved ones that brings me immense joy:) Will update with photos in next post. 

I reached home with an intention to vacuum and mop the floor, but was too sleepy to do so. Keep telling myself to settle some writing and getting started on something. But just can't get my heart on it. So endup reading away, one after another and I found enjoyment in it:) ( Yap I'm someone who is learning how to enjoy, I found myself finding faults with myself at not doing something or well in that something more than I allow myself to just simply do nothing. Sadly sometimes even reading is considered as doing nothing to me. So each time I spend more time reading than doing, I felt bad) Yes, yes I'm such an uptight person who is too serious about doing things. 

I was randomly reading blogs online and come across a post which I can relate so much which make me tear a bit, felt my heart sank a bit but also reaffirm some pending decision of mine to take a leap. So I continue to allow myself to simply just read on... below are some of the articles I been reading.

http://www.thechangeblog.com/right-rejection-and-happy-acceptance/

http://www.thechangeblog.com/losing-your-job-live-your-dream/

http://www.omswami.com/

Good night:) Good Morning:)

Simply in love

http://www.etsy.com/shop/UTHAhats?ref=seller_info

I simply love these hats!!!! awww tribal tribal!!! hmmm 

Well that's simply so BEE! Hee and this makes me kind of happy:)

and wake up from falling asleep while doing space drawing.

Skyrocket your happiness

http://www.thechangeblog.com/10-wise-choices-to-skyrocket-your-happiness/

Illusion

Just finished watching a show "Illusion", introduced by Bird. It's a very nice show, very meaningful. Get me thinking different phrases of my life and decisions I made, paths I took. If life is like a movie, how am I living it so far? How do I want to write my movie. If life is like show reels of movies, then does everything happen for a reason? Does having me watching this movie, writing this post part of the show reel as well? It's certainly a lot to think about, but also perhaps a lot to let go.

Good night:)

Nature n harmony

Love these pictures that bird send me this morning:) There is this quiet yet majestic power within Nature. The glow of the sun, the green of the tree, the texture of its bark. Listen to them.. Watch them... There perhaps hidden the magic that we human has been seeking. Perhaps it's all about harmony.