On track

So I'm giving myself a tough time these couple of days, feeling like a dormant volcano that cant contain itself any much longer. Energy is welling up into balls of fire that just have to be transformed into some form of art before I get burnt out by these overwhelming emotions.

Suddenly I'm in a mood of:

1. Shopping for a man's watch for myself! The tougher the better. Tough metal and sexy cut.
2. Shopping for a Kate Spade bag! haha Have been convincing myself that I don't need one but since I'm just writing here and it doesn't cost a single cent to wish and be vain in writing so here it is.
3. Buy some junks of chains to weave my dried leaves and seeds together.  Got the stuffs!
4. Drink some red and white wine and chill out somewhere.
5. Write a letter of appreciation for myself
6. Write a letter of recommendation for my boss (tell him the vision thing is passe, its gonna be action)
7. Get some weird colour eye shadows (Olive green, black purple, hot pink, mustard yellow)
8. Splashing paint on T shirt and cut holes from it.  Yeah cut up a hand painted T shirt!
9. Wear high heels
10. Collect watches and swiss knives!
11. Be a modelYeah model for Bird in my hand painted and cut T today!
12. Draw some nudes
13. Get a red err or maybe purple moleskin notebook Got a red notebook! no moleskin since they don't have soft red cover. But yea the red is beautiful nonetheless:)
14. Do different things, designs based on my name. Because I'm special and I love my name.
15. Shatter some glass and make it into a piece of art
16. Twist some metal wire
17. Design a programme called "MindGATE crasher" - empower people to crash the gate of their mind to free their soul and live true connected to their heart.
18. Go dancing! or rather jumping on the dance floor

Wish all animals receive good love & care

Hmm I have quite a number of stuffs to write about. But the one thing that triggers my mind now is an abandoned dog. I have never taken care of animals before. Well I have pet rabbits, tortoise before..but that were long before I can remember when I was just kiddo. Of course, even if I remember, pulling rabbits ears and spinning tortoise on its shell definitely doesn't make me sound like a good animal carer. In fact, I doubt my ability to take care of things, from plants to animals to people. I have a heart for them, but just didn't think I have hands for them. I find myself too forgetful, too rough to handle life.
Well I received a text from my cousin asking if I can keep an abandoned dog for a while. I got really   excited about it, thinking how am I gonna ask my mum for permission to do so. Though I have qualms about how am I gonna take care of a dog. But the thought of the dog suddenly being abandoned out in the open with just a plate of water some people left for it, my heart kind of sank. I have seen how my friend took care of her beloved dog, Rei. She is really a fortunate girl to have my friend to take care and love. And I do understand how animals strike this connection with human. I was just hugging Rei yesterday. She is warm and the moment I press the door bell, she was right there in front of me. I was surprised at her speed since she can hardly walk with her crippled leg after an operation some time ago. I held her in my arms, walked around my friend's place. She is so warm. I must admit I find it hard to resist loving these little furry friends.

Anyway, I reached home, saw my dad and thought wow asking my dad may have better chance. But to my disappointment, his ans was a flat no and my mum was complaining how dogs can have furs around and how she dislike people who keep pet. Though of course, I think that is her ignorance at some point about pet from what she heard from people. Yes dogs to shed fur, make noise, poo.. But don't we human do all those as well. Well I got back into my room, my brother walked in and asked me my dad's response. I said no. My brother mentioned Shihtzu is known for its notorious barking and skin problem. My sister agreed. My brother left the room to shower, my sister continues her sleep. And I just sat there at my desk, tearing away not sure why. But tears just well up. I'm such a kiddo. Sometimes I do feel like I'm the youngest in the family. This reminds me of how I bought milk bottle and powder for a kitten I found at my neighbor's flower pot.

Well, wish all animals receive good care and love from their human friends.

And thanks to Bird for being a listening ear and offer that I could keep a dog in our home next time if I really really really want to. hehe well, I probably wouldn't specially buy a dog but knowing that I could keep animal and Bird being so understanding make me feel so loved!

A bird that taught me the lesson about resilience

Suddenly as I stood in train n wander my soul away.. I Realise the importance of Visual images that we observe n feel together is so important.. I suddenly remember that day at tea house I saw this cripple bird with one leg completely fractured, its still hoping around and use that one leg to lift it to flight.. N suddenly that's a images to remind of resilience.. Being resilience at difficult circumstances n flow with it. I was imagining how the bird must have thought shit! It better don't fracture the other leg becos that may means nothing to lift it to flight but now I think maybe the bird just didn think anything but just do whatever has to be done.

Perfect pear pair

http://theperfectpearpair.blogspot.com

Come across this image from the perfect pear pair and I'm loving all the DIY crafts guides (Though I'm not someone into craft works, but love seeing them) And most of all, I love this image and the quotes!

I love to wander:) I'm not lost.

Random moodboard

http://stevenakamura.com/

Productive easter day

Finally settle on a logo typeface and frame of the site:)

Thought it looks neat, sexy with a hint of fun. 

Rounded with an edge, that's the kind of logo I love. 

Kind of loving it and this is good because it gives me motivation

to dive into the "deep ocean" to dish out each and single piece of work,

categories them and shelve them into place. 

aww.. seems like quite a productive easter day! haha 

though I'm missing Bird badly! 

Hope Bird will get well soon...soon soon soON!

Flying draco! Take the leap

woohoo!!! saw this today!!! while walking in to work. hehe that sparks up my morning! 

I thought it was a bird that flew pass, so tiny, so swift. It landed on a tree. I take a close look, thinking that its a bird biting on to a piece of green leafy. And suddenly realise it has tail!!! it's a lizard!! a draco!

A flying dragon?! hehehe so excited!!! Google on it and its name is really Draco! Draco sumatran! hehe

I love my work place where it's near the forest!

sgwildanimals.fortunecity.com/reptiles/lizards/fl.html

Strangely! Bird sent me this in the morning before I met the lizard who took the leap. 

I didn't quite get it till Bird text me again 

" The pic is an encouragement to take a leap and do what you wish 

because sometimes it takes falling to fly"

How amazing isn't it?! haha and here I met a flying lizard! who don't really fly but take leap from a vantage height in order to glide!! woohooo!

It's amazing how it glide and able to aim the landing point so swiftly!!!

Great Morning to start with!!!

Now it gets me thinking what do I wish to do and gota take that leap!!! 

That's quite a list! 

1. In terms of work; Yeah! Service, organization structure design! Designing, sparkling and sustaining the pulse of organization! That's what I love to do! I always thought I love to do branding, but recently an insight show me (Thanks to the strength quest Bird let me do) that I love something beyond and deeper than branding, I'm interested to be the doctor of a organization, to monitor the pulse of it, the morale of each individual, the momentum of the heartbeats and sustaining a healthy pulse!

2. In terms of fun; I would love to paint something on a canvas! But always cant get an idea what to paint! hehe so here's something to play on!

3. In terms of life; To get on next phrase of life, to marry! haha (Something I used to have resistance, fear towards because it seems woman's life is so short. You marry, kids and turn "yellow") But with Bird, it feels so natural and looking forward to this next phrase together:) 

Random thoughts

Was reading a book about capitalism and how stuffs matter and some thoughts came on upon reading the chapter on Happiness

• Happiness comes in ability to make choices.
• Luxury of income comes in its empowerment to make choices so that we can work & live with a purpose to serve a greater good
• The pleasure in having an income comes in how much we can maximize it.

My self indulgence cover letter

I wrote something today while keeping quiet beside Bird, trying to read. And perhaps Bird is right. I just have to talk and when I cant talk to Bird. I quietly talk to myself and hence for almost everytime I try to keep quiet n read beside Bird. I ended up writing. haha

so here's a little indulgence:

Wrote this while reading a book by Seth Godin titled we r all weird.. And also inspired by my conversation with my bro last night. Its a little edgy, self centered n funny but who knows maybe this is just what people want to fall in love with haha. This maybe some sort of self indulgence but seriously feels great doing it! Hahaha n who knows really hehe n I certainly apply what I learn from Steve jobs: repeat ur key point 3 times. Start, middle and end. Hahahaha in this case "I'm a designer"

I'm a designer. I don't believe in accumulating a portfolio of works to exhibit. Neither do I believe in the over rated term ;"unique idea".  To put it simply, I believe in what works.

Ideas don't have to be unique. They just need to click; to tell a story that people would not just believe but can't wait to share. This is what makes me a designer.

I'm not an artist. Don't get me wrong. I have great respect for artists and a lover for arts. Art is created to be appreciated. And I sincerely do. But I love design more.

 Life is short and like it or not; I'm not born with very good patience. So instead of waiting for a passerby to appreciate my work. Maybe one in a hundred or a thousand. I take the practical approach; I make some noise, I talk to people and share with them how they could get things done n have a group of followers and be appreciated.

Is my approach unique? You would be too good to be fooled if u say yes. No. It isn't. But the truth is everyone love to be connected and appreciated.

Am I trying to be different?

Nope. On contrary, i'm just being ordinary. All I did was reach out to people. To share with them how ordinary  I'm and how much I can relate to them so much so that I can offer my understanding to provide ideas and solution to their challenges.

I'm a designer. I design this letter with love n truth.

Done list and to do list:)

It's been quite a while since I blogged. Been busy yadda yadda.. so here finally I'm on leave! 2nd day in my leave. Didn't really do anything big. But here's it is:

1. Packed my desk, wardrobe, drawers, make space for books

2. Went to market with Mum, prepare for CNY food. 

3. Cleaned the house.

4. Went visiting relatives. 

5. Photo portraits with parents and family:) One thing that I'm really grateful for!

6. Met up with Hermie ( Crazy brainless talk, nice chill out time)

7. Did a weeny bit of reading on my iphone (Marketer are liars.  I love the book! Hope I can get the hard copy! because reading from iphone is still somehow feel so hard to make notes!) oh and how I love marketing. or maybe it's a love hate situation. What I love about it; sharing the mission, vision, living to it and spreading to everyone.

8. Took a slow stroll in my neighbourhood, circling round a tree and took some amazing photos of nature.

9. Ran after a rainbow (as I wrote on previous post:) 

10. Connect with my bro; listening to stories and sharing stories.

11. Looking through photo albums of tons of photos. And I'm loving it! 

12. Painted my nails (Yellow mustard) Not perfect! but just for Fun!

So here's what I'm gonna do:

1. Gonna meet up with black bear and Birdie tonight

2. Tidy up some photos:)

3. Read something! 

4. Review and write down past year achievements

5. Research and list to do stuffs for the big day

6. Visit Botanica garden/ Bird Park! 

7. Meet up with Missy Tong (Some catch up time finally! Havent seen her for months!)

8. Catch up with Chickie (I'm really quite a people person, enjoying connecting with loved ones)

9. Fix my mini puzzle! (that I have been opening and closing the box) haha

10. lil soulbirds project

11. Write down plans for the year..at work and personal*** (a bonus; the brother bears are not around next week so I still get some time to do this even after leave is over) Just thought my leave should be dedicated to personal life for now. hehe

12. hmm celebrating early beeday with Mum.. thinking of bringing her to sentosa flower show.

light

http://www.teachickadees.com

This makes me smile:) and feel lighter about myself

What makes bee happy

Bee is in some sort of roller coaster ride emotionally..

and somehow I just decided to write a list of things that makes me happy..

1. Being with Bird

2. browsing lovely blogs of crafts with personal touch

3. Going to nature

4. A neat desk area and organised living environment (I'm so gonna pack more and decorate a little)

5. Writing little notes of inspiration

6. When I can bring sparks to someone or things

7. Listening to some non main stream music (that brings me far far away from where I'm physically and mentally...far away so that I'm closer to me)

8. Handmade gifts (I'm not good at it, but I love it)

9. Shopping at lovely indie shop (stationary and notebooks made with love)

10. Sweet treats in tiny homemade style cafe

11. French movies

12. Sipping wine from a nice sparkling glass

13. Chocolate n scent of old books

14. Paper crafts

15. Lying in a private beach or some place far away from people in just bikini and the sun.

16. Ice cold beer in hot sun (Beers are for the sun, Wine are for the dark)

17. Being passionate about what I do
18. Snapping moments in pictures
19. I love my name and Birthdate
20. Orange and green

Sunset with Bird

Sunset with Bird after work feels amazing!!! 

and all these views just a stone's throw away from office:P

SUN beaming through my soul

It's not easy to do absolutely nothing sometimes.

There is always something in those moments of nothingness ~

and that something that I love most of today is

The sun set and the cooling wind through my room window

Closing my eyes and breathe...

*I adore slow time like this*

Little quotes

Found these quotes on little postcards

 and I'm loving it! Both Bird and Bee are down with flu..

or maybe I just need quiet time. Writing in here with the breeze brushing my hair on my face makes me feel great:) Love to be by the sea.

A large drop of sun lingered on the horizon and then dripped over and was gone, and the sky was brilliant over the spot where it had gone...
~John Steinbeck

Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns it calls me on and on across the universe.
~John Lennon

Do stuff.  Be clenched, curious.  Not waiting for inspiration's shove or society's kiss on your forehead.  Pay attention.  It's all about paying attention.  Attention is vitality.  It connects you with others.  It makes you eager.  Stay eager.
~Susan Sontag

For me, the camera is a sketch book, an instrument of intuition and spontaneity.

~Henri Cartier-Bresson

Every moment before this one depends on this one.
~Jonathan Safran Foer

If there is magic on this planet, it is contained in water.
~Loren Eiseley

Lovely images makes me smile:)

Aren't they lovely:)

 Reminds me of the little kitten I found in a flowerpot last year.. hmm hope it's well living its kitty life to the fullest now.

lovely shades of colours

phunky

 And woman! I love women! I'm straight. I just think woman are much more intriguing than guys.

I just get to appreciate woman more..with each curvature of the body, eyes, lips, scent and hairstyle.. There are just so much more in a woman to adore. Most of all, I guess no matter how much we need a guy sometimes, there are just things that only woman would understand. We are strong, we are weak, we are sensitive, we are expressive.. we can be needy, we are fiercely independent. Woman is a beautiful form of art.

Love her relaxed natural look and short hair:)

indie girl next door look..

sexy jazzy style:)

can't remember where i get these pics from.. they are simply beautiful!

Good mood with beautiful moon

Mood is an passing emotion consists of thoughts, experiences and perceptions...Of which, we can choose what we think, how we feel about our experiences and what we perceive. So a good mood will mean think of good things, live our experiences as a process of life that make us stronger and to take a positive perception on things:) Grant yourself a GOOD MOOD in this good morning with a beautiful MOON:)

Well just back from work at this wee hour.. get to ride with a nice chatty and cheerful cab driver. He was talking about its going to be 15th of the lunar month and that the moon is getting round. I looked out of the window as he pass by a flyover and I was exhilarated, the moon looks right back at me from the middle of the clear night blue sky with little stars sparkling around it. Perfect! I was literally woow with my mouth open, looking at the moon probably like as if I m a kid with the first encounter with the moon. hehe.. The uncle smile and said :" nice right?!" 

"Yes!!! it's totally!" Bee replied.

My beloved Tweety

 Some close friends may know this VERY SPECIAL TWEETY..yeah! it's been trying to make that call since day one when my mum gave this to me as a souvenir when she came back from a short trip. Well at least this is how I remember..and that was 16 good years ago:)

Probably the one thing which follows me the longest of time!!! Yea!! it has been through thick and thin with me all these years.. which you can easily tell from its bruises and colour:p

It has been misplaced several times during its course of journey with me..and I even cried once thinking I lost it forever..only to find it somewhere in the office.. And another time found it just at the edge of the lift door after a night of losing it.. It is like we share this infinity together:) 16 years is through rebellious teenage years, adventurous or reckless 20s' till now the beginning of my thirties. There are times when I felt so down and having things that can't share with parents yet yearning for warmth from them..I will hold it in my palm so tight and silently telling it my longings and desire for warmth and comfort. And it does makes me feel better. Such is the love for it and my mum:)

Bird has been asking me to grant Tweety its retirement so it can have its well deserved rest after all these years. I can't bear to.. even right now I still look at it and cant bear to not bring it with me:) 

It's irreplaceable. And for a long time I havent find anything that can take up its task till just now when we saw this bee bearbrick. The size looks alright, weight is fine. It's a bee so that's kind of me..Bird got it for me .. I successfully turn it into a keychain instead of a hp strap. It doesn't feel anything like Tweety.. It's new. It's lovely..but yet it will never be the same. It takes some courage to make the change; slotting key by key in as I already missing Tweety. 

I realise they have something in common; they are both pretty yellow:) Maybe that's why I feel alright to make the change. The energy is the same..perhaps. I left a tiny key with Tweety in case it is not used to being retired..So I think it will be aright:)

Time with Bird has taught a few lessons and one of which is learning to let go. Learning to love and loving..So here I practice.. Love...Breathe

Care for a dip?

 Reading an article from matador.. It's beautiful.. N get me thinking how many people n at what occasions have they share the beautiful breathtaking moment of the eclipse. It is a love shared..... It's greatness from the universe hehe I'm feeling like I have to dip into water which actually metaphorically feels like my soul.. I need to dip into my soul.. N lift my head above it and take a large breathe of air in order to push forward.. N to rekindle the light shining upon the water haha leave bee alone n this is what u get.. A bee sinking into some bee in wonderland

random

There are still so much more I want to share here!!!

• the orange light
• the forest and the lightness 
• running free...
• the little moments of nature's beauty
• new year resolution and goal
• accomplishment and wrap up of the year
• the book journal I got myself
• what makes me happy
• things that I'm looking forward!!! 

Well.. a long day tomorrow and need myself to be alive for it..so I shall just leave those brief points here so I could continue hopefully before the new year!