Being Joy

Oh right... Bee is buzzing here and there and everywhere lately. Mainly, I'm buzzing through my way to understand what makes me happy and what energizes me and give me joy. I always thought I have a work that I'm happy with and that it doesn't feel like work. Maybe that is true for large first part of my journey in this work. But recently, it seems to be further and further away from what seems like a dream that I would fulfill with joy. It seems to be deviated from what I always thought it is. So honestly, I felt lost for the first time and maybe even a little depressed. I started asking myself questions. I realise I could do so much more and there are so much more things that could energize me beside work.

I watched talks, read books, did alittle gardening, getting high with my friend who says Popsicle reminds her of me, hug a dog, snapping photos. Well I'm happy while I'm doing all these. I'm someone who just have to pour my heart into something because that is pretty much me. My soul.

A bird that taught me the lesson about resilience

Suddenly as I stood in train n wander my soul away.. I Realise the importance of Visual images that we observe n feel together is so important.. I suddenly remember that day at tea house I saw this cripple bird with one leg completely fractured, its still hoping around and use that one leg to lift it to flight.. N suddenly that's a images to remind of resilience.. Being resilience at difficult circumstances n flow with it. I was imagining how the bird must have thought shit! It better don't fracture the other leg becos that may means nothing to lift it to flight but now I think maybe the bird just didn think anything but just do whatever has to be done.