spice

Hermie send me a link.. of Hindi Zahra's video Beautiful Tango and get me into it all...

Great one!! Hermie just know how to spice things up for me! haha doing some boring work, listening to these music and it sure gets me into an arty mood! 

Dance! Write! Paint! Time to do all these! hehe

suddenly words flow pass my mind and get me wondering since when I stop writing to music.. 

Soul is your true home

Your soul is your true home. 

The first time you consciously inhabit your ultimate place and act from your soul is the first time you can say, "Here" and really know what it means. You've arrived, at last, at your own center. As long as you stay Here, everywhere you go, geographically or socially, feels like home. Every place becomes Here.

This is the power of place, the power of Here.

Before soul initiation, wherever you go, there you are. 

After soul initiation, wherever you go, Here you are. 

-- Bill Plotkin in Nature and the Human Soul

lovely note from ijourney 

Bee's little escapade

 

Love the green, sun and blue sky!

Photos taken from my little escapade round my neighbourhood:) Nice time being alone:)

Run with your heart

 Rainbow rainbow!!! I finally get to witness these beautiful rainbow on two separate days! And lesson learn: Sometimes miracles happens when you least expected it so.

 This is the best reward a full day of packing my room! Just as I was trying to snap a picture the colour of the sun for Bird to see, I saw a spot of colours through my phone screen. I thought I was using some filter in my phone apps. But I wasnt! and a closer look! I was elated! It's rainbow! Something I consider a miracle because it is that tiny gap of opportunity that one get to catch a glimpse of these colourful decoration of the sky. And I'm thankful that both the sun and bird have kind of lead me to this:)

And here's me in the train with my brother..as I suddenly spotted something like a rainbow across the sky as the train passes by one of my favourite place:) I asked my brother can I get off the train to see rainbow..he didn't reply me and before he know, I jumped out of the train and happily went trying to snap a picture of it. Next moment I asked him can I go down to the field to catch the rainbow. He nodded his head (by this time, it's a little black) I ran down to the open field; no more rainbow! It's already gone. But I'm happy nonetheless. Because I seen it, I run after it. I did all I could at that moment to chase after what I love. Yea. When you love something so much, you just run with your heart. And guess, that's bee:) It's not about whether we get it or not in the end, it's about taking that step in full blast, doing all you could to get it! That's the spirit! 

So thank you rainbow:) thank you sun who lights form the rainbow:)

I'm glad to witness this little rainbow in that split moment:) A moment to remind me to appreciate each and every moment of life. For each moment is a miracle:) And most of all, when you love something so much, you go all out to get it!

Happy Release!

 

Ok. I finally cleared off my pile of work (at least whatever phrase it is),

I'm finally easing my buzzing a little to rejuvenate!

And here's one happy Bee with people she loves so much! hehe 

Having a feast @Little Part One Cafe! hehe Yeah celebrating my "accomplishment" of my last part of 2011! And here I'm looking forward to my long long long awaited off days (Yeah! brother bear asked me for talk after I finally untangle myself from the webs of rushing for the past days and the first thing is excitement, running after him with two pretty sheets of leave forms for him to sign)

Him signing the papers is such a bliss! You know like looking at the brother bear with a pocketful of wishes and looking at his hand on the papers doing "magic"!

So here I'm like a school kid looking forward for my "school holiday"

and like a dada, brother bear sounded like a worried dad who afraid the bee would gone too far in playing and forget everything about "homework"! Keep reminding me that I have to do this.. and that and this! haha 

Seriously! Like a kid indeed, nothing of those really got into my mind once the forms are signed! I'm very focused! on my off days! Thinking who to meet and what to do to connect with myself:)

Sun with Moon, Bee with Bird

Finally brought Bird to Sun with Moon restaurant. hehe They serve great jap food. Most of all, I wanted to bring Bird there because of its name! hehe Sun with Moon. So if I am the Sun, Bird is the Moon! And we are when the sun and moon aligned. hehe

Enigma and Sunrise

Bird just sent me this video and im totally awed!!! Enigma and Sunrise!!!! 

Have been loving the music of Enigma since young.. and Sunrise and here it is.. both in one. hehe 

Beautiful:)

Need to recondition my body, soul and mind

I'm awake at 5am again from the body aches and headache. 

Ended up cutting those big pieces of plasters.

2 plasters for my shoulders, 2 plasters for my waist, 1 tablet for headache, 1 tablet for running nose. I'm grabbing crystal stone that Bird handed me earlier (Stated for exhaustion and aches in bones), rubbing it in my hands, placing it beside my bed, blowing my nose, lying down and sitting up, turning my pillow round and round.

I'm feeling so so weak! Seriously need a reconditioning of my body.

The thing is mentally, I just thought I'm tired but keep telling myself that I'm not exhausted yet and I should do more before I'm really depleted! Which is what I told Brother Bear. I want to get things done before xmas really ends and everyone and everything seems to lose its momentum and come to a standstill that can only pick up in months. So I went back office, passes work down and keeping track of deadlines for things to come.

I just didn't know how to really relax and take things at a lighter note sometimes. Everything is important to bee. And here I'm suddenly realizing that my health my body is the most important of the list!

That's so much to do that it will never get done. I need to learn how to take a break. 

here's a list of things to do for reconditioning my body:

1. Drink more water!

2. Get a new pillow that enhance sleeping posture! As I begin to suspect it's my pillow that is contributing to all those shoulder and neck tension because of its angle and thickness. 

3. Take breaks in between 

(do some doodling in my notebook with sweet lovely stuffs, write a few words, browsing some beautiful pictures that make me smile...or simply do nothing)

4. Go on holiday

(Set a location for exploration and just go and do nothing)

5. Go for walks/ cycling

6.  Snooze at home watching French films of quirkiness and love

7. Wear more dress 
(I tend to be more relaxed and do less in a dress)

 

Soulbirds dream:)

http://pinterest.com/pin/53339576806148700/

 Soulbirds:) This is giving me a beautiful dream now.. ^_^

and I love this dress and her hairstyle!!! neat and poppy!

Bliss:)

 Love this picture Bird took of me! I think I sparkle haha..

These few days have been a swirl for me with running about, liaising with different people. 

I wish I have more time to really settle in and enjoy these lovely moment, very important day of my life. Yes! To really sink in and breathing in all. Every blog post has been some sort of a rush in between works. Well so that I wont miss any moments while dealing with different aspect of work.

Anyway.. I'm taking a moment here to post this beautiful collage Bird make to mark our day:) 

Thank you Bird for being so loving and understanding..while Bee is trapped in pile of buzzing. 

And in the midst of all the rushing for work, at the end of the day, it is knowing there is someone waiting and watching over me and we have a future to build that give me the strength and energy. 

I'm looking forward to our bto result and of course at the back of my mind, I'm excited for the whole marriage thing. Which is great! hehe *blushing* :P

Oh and here I found a picture of us probably last year when we were just friends and colleagues. 

How time flies and I feel blessed to have Bird:)

10.12.2011 where the Moon meets the sun, the Bird and Bee become one

 It was all unexpected for both of us. Although perhaps news have already been flooding internet about an full lunar eclipse on 10.12.2011. Bird received a text from his sister about an eclipse going on as both of us pack up to leave work from Vivo. Both of us had a long day and as we walked along the overhead bridge to bus interchange for me to catch a bus home. Bird popped out his head to look above for the eclipse. The thing is I heard about eclipse but never thought it could really be witnessed here in our little island with naked eyes. To our amazement, we found the eclipse going on like a little grey dot that somehow seems to turn a little orange colour. We are both in awe! It is beautiful! Of course especially knowing somewhere out there what we are witnessing is actually the straight alignment of the moon, earth and the sun and all reflected as one here. 

 And to the utmost respect to iphone, Bird actually managed to capture the beautiful eclipse as Bee was looking out into the night of Christmas lights, remembering how this place is kind of where we connect in a special way during last year Christmas season. 

The flowers at night are beautifully rested along the overhead bridge. 

Bird pulled me to a corner of the bridge, mumbling something like "since it's such a beautiful night...."

and gave me a big hug as I looking into the eclipse which is now getting brighter, beaming at us. 

I am really appreciative and so so thankful to be able to share such beautiful moment with a man I love and connect so deeply. And just at this moment, Bird knelt on his knees and grin at me saying "Marry me" WOW! as he pulled out a tiny ring from my right finger which he gave me sometime ago and put it right back. haha of course Bird is confused which hand to wear an engagement ring. It's all unexpected for both of us. It just feels right. Bird stood up and we hug! and told me that he actually bought a ring which intended to give me as an engagement ring but of course which he didn't bring! haha and a moonstone bracelet which he already wore it on my hands during a movie sometime ago. 

Bird being Bird as a quiet nature is definitely great at giving little surprises. Unlike Bee who usually just cant wait to share joy and surprises which kind of make the surprises so outright open! haha Well here's us, our differences and our similarities and most of all, our souls as one just like the moon, earth and sun.

As a woman, I have been imagining all kind of ways to be proposed and how I would like to be surprised and all the props and people that come along in it. But on this night, when Bird finally proposed to me. It's something that I have never imagine. On a bridge, under the eclipse, just the two of us, no diamond ring, no bouquet of flower, me in my shorts and tank top. Bird proposed to Bee. 

And at that moment, all those "standard protocols" of a proposal doesn't matter anymore. Because in front of me, it's someone who I love and can't wait to spend my life with, creating our own homes and making our dreams into reality. 

Just about a year ago, I caught myself feeling something for Bird as we watch sunrise on Mt Faber, right opposite of where we stood last night. I was rambling with Bird that hey! we have come one round as one now just like the moon and the sun who finally meet. I love the sun and the moon and this day definitely is the perfect moment for us. 

And here's alittle funny bit; I ask Bird so don't he want to wear the ring on my left hand.. (Of course, didn expect him to down on knees again) But he did! awww I have got myself a very lovely Bird! hehe

We went to minimart because Bird want to show me a magazine which he seen earlier. He couldnt find it. And there I was pulling out a magazine n reading out the title on the cover page! And voila! that's the magazine Bird wanted to show me. On the cover is a title; A matter of time! We both felt it was perfect!!! since on this special night really feels like it's a right time. So we got the magazine as a momento! hehe

We went to Mcdonald to grab a drink and there is Bird combining the date 10.12.2011 to see if it forms 8 in numerology and it does! Exactly 8!!

And as we flipped look at our magazine, we suddenly saw this sticker of vendor code for the magazine and the numbers look so familiar! 8120! Our birthday falls on 1802 and here's a 8120, so if you read from the center of this set of number and connecting it to the last number of the set, it does read out; 1802! hehe yeah yeah!! it's amazing!!! hehe We are in awe!!!! I have told Bird before that marriage is about two complete person coming together to form one circle together; to be one. And here's our number showing us the round hehe..

 oh and as I wake up, Bird sent me a series of photos and article and we realise it is a rare sight of lunar full eclipse that we have witnessed last night. Where the Moon and the Sun are exactly 180 degree apart!! 180!!! hehehe!!!

Horses in wilderness

Bird sent me an email of these wild horses from here

I love horses! for their free spirit and energy. It just charms me so much.

This inspires me to study on horses! Listening to soundtrack from the show "Spirit" 

Perfect:)

My journey

Had an unexpected interesting journey yesterday.

Here are some lessons learn through the day:

1. Recollection and connection - 

Sometimes it doesn't matter how far we have gone or how long we have not meet up with someone. We just keep them in our hearts. And a simple text shows a great lot of care.

Went to Jurong to settle some stuffs at a bank. It's been a long long time since I took bus to that estate though it's really pretty near my place. I arrive there, feeling quite alienated. Walked into the estate, looking for the bank. Passed by a row of shops and suddenly someone pop into my mind. A close friend during my secondary school days. Those days we hang out there after school. Decided to text the friend whom I haven't seen in at least 4 to 5 years. 

2. We can choose the perspective to look at things for the better. Loving and believing in what you can do creates wonder and make things possible.

Roam around the estate like a tourists and decided to go take a look at the library. It's nicely lit up with see through glasses around the building which means readers can look out to the nature lights while reading. Lovely:) I endup sat between rows of shelvings, browsing through some retail design books. And I just love what I do. Love being in the retail design scene. It's something that a designer do that has a direct impact on business and people. Something more than design on paper, but designing an experience. Inspiration pours in. Instead of being pissed with my other little brother monkey for doing a half baked renovation because of budget constraints. I picked myself up and browse through books to think of a way to make everything pretty within budgets.

3. Everyone needs some forms of gratification whether we know it or not. It's alright. When we accept the fact that no one is perfect, we become a better person. Remembering values is the key to each of our lives. 

Text brother bear a pic of a retail store in Stockholm selling headsets with ipod as demo. It feels nice being able to share things with Brother Bear. Something that gives me more energy. Though that awkwardness is still there, but I choose to not bother about it. Whatever done cant be undone. No point explaining or claiming right or wrong. It's not easy for me to do this as I dislike being misunderstood. But then again, I look into my values, my belief, my core. I do love Brother Bear. As much annoying he can get sometimes, he's like a little child who needs gratification. And that's also what I find him adorable and almost the one reason that pulls me back from exploding full blast. Because, whether we know it or not, do it or not, everyone of us seeks some form of gratification. And that's perfectly normal and alright. 

4. Appreciate little things. We can choose to enjoy life in our small little ways.

Hop on a bus, embark on a long journey to the east to find Bird. Took some pictures while on the bus, feel like I'm a tourist on a tour bus. Each leaf in the wind. Birds flying pass. Sunlight embracing everything. There are really to appreciate in nature. 

5. We can choose to be happy or in pain. Remembering love is the key. To give and open to receive.

Passed by an estate. Lots of memory. Some seems like just yesterday. A place which I dislike to be reminded of. A place of both sweet innocent and depressive moments. I used to feel my heart ache and anger rages for the unjustified moments. The place feels so familiar yet distant. Somehow it just doesn't matter anymore. Forgiven and forget? Hmm guess it's neither of that. It's perhaps more of a realization that nothing is forever and so does pain. Memory too will be gone one day we passed on. We can choose to be happy or in pain. I choose to be happy. I took on a different perspective at looking at those memory. Looking at all the ups and downs roller coaster rides in my life. I can't help but to let out a smirk, a smile on my face that wow! I really lived life! I lived my emotions. I lived love. I lived those moments. Instead of regrets of what can't be undone or explained, I appreciate what I can do and have now. I'm so glad that after all these ups and downs, I'm now well with doing what I enjoy, loving someone who I feel really great connection with. And loving many others; family, friends, colleagues, little birds and cats I meet. I'm thankful being loved by many too.

6. It's not about how close we are with someone. It's about what we do to be connected.

Meet Bird and took a bus to another estate to collect stuffs. It's interesting, passing by there is another set of memory. My poly days. Those journeys of roaming in school. And where I met Chickie. My dear friend, where we will always stick together. I will eat lunch at the canteen where she can eat vegetarian food. We are almost always out away from our other classmates. And oh one more person to remember here, Charles.  A dear little skinny lovely boy! Who is now happily married! wow! Time flies man! Used to stick to him to get information on deadlines, help me roll film into the film developing canister in the darkroom. I have never ever do it alone successfully. I'm always in lala land somehow and he will be the one who wake me up to meet deadlines. We werent really really chose because I'm just too much of a loner haha or sticking with Chickie. But he is a dear friend I remember fondly. I regret not attending his wedding. Now to think that, I should! Because for someone who didn keep in touch to invite me is really not easy! And this sparks me to attend another friend's engagement party on Xmas eve next month! Again, it was a surprise when he invite but I'm so glad that he did too. I used to think that it's awkward to attend someone's party when I'm not really close. But taking on a different perspective, from the view of the person who invite. Wow! he actually remember to invite me and share the joy though we don't see each other much.

Bee gone mad! n loving it!

I met an angel today.

I feel the power arising from the very pulse of my heart. 

I feel the energy pouring into the universe, dancing with it. 

I feel each beat of the galaxy. 

I feel the speed rushing through my veins.

I feel the beats speaking to me. 

I met an angel today.

And the angel is the music within.

I'm in a little madness! But that's what driving me forward now. 

And I'm loving the madness!

"the great timing to do things is when you don't know what you can or cannot do. Because at this moment, you will simply just do it!"

Songbird for SoulBirds:)

SongBird by Eva Cassidy. Beautiful voice

Bee and Nature

Let the wind lifts your wings. 

Let the light dance on you...be in the dance of the lights.. Flow with the lightness of your heart:)

Soulbirds

I will always reach out for you:)

Souls as one

Bird's Dinner of yong tau foo

Bee's supper + dessert!

I just thought it would be interesting to remember this moment. We both had a long Sunday afternoon snooze since we didn't sleep for the whole Saturday night. Decides sometimes we should let each other enjoy some "solitude" time to get in touch with ourselves, our inner self, to reflect or simply to just be alone. Aloneness is an essential in many ways, especially in relationship. It gives the time and space to reflect, rejuvenate or simply be ignited by a new awareness:) Aloneness can bring people closer at hearts, which is very very Very Important! People are in contact with almost everyone they know most of the time, thanks to all the social networking widgets. It's nice to stay connected but guess it's also important to stay connected beyond these widgets and really get in touch with each other's soul. 

I love how Bird and Bee can be on our own, doing our own things, yet still feel our souls connected as one. An occasional texts along each of our own journey teaches us the magic of connection which is essential in a relationship with anyone; 

1. In many occasions, I have seen couples who deem texting each other as a must do thing or an extra thing to do when they are together long enough. However, being together long doesnt mean no need for communication. I personally appreciate little texts of greetings or simply someone sending me a text asking how am I.. It really is the thought that counts. Reach out to someone to let them know you care, you are with them even if you are not physically beside. It means a great lot!

2. It's not about reporting to each other. It's a little thing we can do to show we are in touch. 

3. We can be apart and together at the same time. 

4. We are never really apart when we are souls as one.

oh and one more lesson learnt; being apart gives us time and space to appreciate and enjoy each other's differences. Bee and Bird are kind of the same and different at the same time. Bird is an Owl, a solitary Bird who enjoy being in stillness Bee being a Bee, is quite a buzzing character who enjoy buzzing around with chains of activities. So how does the Bird and Bee travel together. We complement quite well! Bird calm Bee down into some quietness and reflective mood. Bee sparks Bird into life! haha or so I think! hehe get it moving moving. hehe

I love us:)

We were having our dinner and supper seperately but it feels so together too. 

I love you Bird:) 

*I'm so grateful to have you in my life*

Birds

This is the flock of birds that I was so amazed at. Flying above and across us in a formation that looks like a huge Bird! Didn't manage to capture a full shot..but this is good enough:)

Something to help me recall next time about once there was a flock of birds flew past my head..

To the blue light

I'm having a little dream on this lazy Saturday afternoon. 

Journaling my experiences here has given me a great time to stay connected with the soul within. Some weeks ago, I had a dream that pointed me to go to where the blue portion of the map is..

It's a beautiful dream, perhaps the most beautiful dream I ever have as far as I remember. 

A series of experiences have led me to a place, named Lapland in Finland.

Perhaps that is where the blue is. 

Since then, I have been having Lapland in mind, in search of more information about traveling there and getting around. I have never travel that far away from the equator. So this certainly means an adventure! It isn't a contemplation to travel there. It's perhaps a matter of time and chance. I will get there somehow. Soon. I just knew it. Because the feeling is strong.

Have found a number of links about Lapland and from which I found some interesting photos below.

Those beautiful colours I painted have appear here again:)

The blue light? The blue portion of the map? :)

http://www.lightsoverlapland.com/about

http://www.lapland-travel-info.com/

http://www.nellim.fi/index.html

http://www.trylapland.com/index.htm

*oh and I have been listening to this song "We all fall in love sometimes" by Jeff Buckley:) Setting my Saturday in a slow and peaceful mood. And yea.. we all fall in love sometimes. be it with people we met, know, places we been or dream.