Be ok

I'm so in love with this video!! the music, the lyrics! the happiness! 

Great song to begin the weekends. Yeah! 

I love happy songs. 

Somehow it seems to remind me it's time to let myself enjoy some rest:)

Happy excitement

Bee is really really excited now! Suddenly all my exhaustion from work seems to dissolve and my mind and heart is lit up! hehe..

Finally took the first step to the Bee and Bird dream after thinking and wondering and hoping.. 

We finally found something that we both feel strongly for.

And the amazing thing is that just weeks back we were drawn to the place nearby after a random walk through a kampong. I still remember the walk, the sunset and the birds. They are in my hearts.

And now we found a place at the edge of the map with an island opposite! woohoo! hahaha I can't help to fall into a deep dream with this image. hehe 

Excitement within excitement. 

Yea.. I'm feeling excited because of my excitement. It feels like the rare occasion that I'm excited about something in my personal life rather than work. Now I have something to look forward to. Something to garner my energy for it to come true. hehe 

And we both have good feeling about this. Somehow I can't help thinking that we are guided. Guided on a path to experience such greatness in the beauty of the place.

And this excitement now kind of makes me see and feel that energy and light I'm looking for. It feels so different when you are out there following your heart, pursuing your dream and persevere to make it come true based on your values and beliefs. All these while, work is good, brother bears are nice and lovely..but somehow there is this void. This void that seems to drain my energy. This gap that needs energy to perk up, to ignite. But I didn't know what.. perhaps because I didn't know how it feels. 

But this moment now, I'm feeling good. I'm feeling I have the energy to do a lot more than what I now did and it's time.

Why do I do what I do/ gonna do:

To bring sparks, to ignite the soul of individual or company. 

*Getting really dreamy..while sipping on warm cooked cereal..feeling the future and my values*

Wilderness in somewhere out there^_^

 Bee can't stop moving!!! (can see from all the blur haha)

 Live, love, laugh!!!

 and of course this is us!!! Bird & Bee having fun snapping our own photos!!!

and all these happen in..............(make a guess!?)

Bird's "perch on" place!!! 

Mcdonald's!! amazing isnt it! 

Love it when we can just make simple day so fun!!!

Bee can cook!

Chicken Wings in oyster sauce with ginger & mushrooms!

A dish I haven't cook for at least 14 years! haha it's pretty exciting to experiment with taste!

Baked potato

 Not the best baked potato I have made.. I ran out of sea salt!! 

But over all, well edible! hehe and the herb saves it all!

Now I'm left with many washed potato wonder what should I do..

Looks like a spread!!

White wine is the best after all the cooking!!

And wedges and spicy nuggets courtesy of my brother!! 

I'm actually happy to be able to cook in the kitchen and have a little bonding time with my brother..

listening to him sharing his critique on movies..

No any luxury restaurant can compare to this experience I have here.

I'm so glad Bird enjoy the food especially my impromptu chicken wing dish! 

because personally I love this dish and I've found another similarity between us;

Bird loves dish with ginger too! hehe I love ginger! ginger with century egg, ginger tea, raw ginger with sashimi... hehe 

Loves:D

Thankful for such lovely weekend of wine and dine at home:)

Happy day:)

Finally went for a walk at Henderson Wave and up Mt Faber! I love taking walk in the nature.. it's simply the kind of activity that takes my mind off and charge me up. Of course with great accompany from Bird! Makes the walk even more interesting!
Here are some reasons why:
1. We take pictures almost every moment on our way up

2. Get to lay on the grass, looking up the sky!

3. Walk into some "portal"surrounded by greenery

4. Stand side by side, watching the leaves rustle in the breeze.

5. Sweat out all the weariness from work..feeling fresh.

6. Took alternative route up and down and up! Thanks to Bird's randomness, breaks my habit of knowing and following the way I have in mind. It's much more exciting in a way.

7. Appreciating each other's accompany along the way. ( These tiny joy makes one great happiness)

8. Posing and camera time! at the henderson waves! Fun!!

9. Stroll down the hill hand in hand. 

10. Dinner with beers and sausages!

11. And a gift from Bird! A necklace with a wooden rocking horse! wooo!! it's probably one of those girly things that I would always look at but just can't bear to get for myself!

Thank you Bird!!!

oh and 

12. It's a luxury to have some little time to post something here!!! Have been so busy that this time of filling in the journal here feels great!!!

Give good + Receive with gratitude = Happiness in abundance

I have so much to say at the moments.. I didn't know where to begin or how to use words to describe my multi layers of emotions...so perhaps I shall just begins with something on my mind now

"What makes you the happiest man/woman?"

A few things I learn today:

1.  I learn some strange ways of how money works and its effects on people. It's a little like drug it seems. Because it's funny to see someone dear to me so happy because of money. It's been a long time since I see such glow. How money could actually feed someone's ego and then rob off someone's dignity when it's gone. It's still the same object. A piece of paper if we look at it physically. A currency because someone tells a story that followed by many stories to give this piece of paper "value". It's just as good as decorative items to some extent. I didn't know how to explain very well on this at the moment.  I have very mixed feelings on that. Very. I almost tear because I see the glow that I long to see for so long...so long.. Guess I felt really happy for him..or simply to see that glow means a great lot to me. But at the same time, I felt really sad, I almost tear because at that very moment, it is the money that sparks that glow. That piece of paper. That currency determined by stories. 

2. "Giving is the best gift you can give for someone." - this came into my mind as I writes this. I have been in a business of giving, encouraging people to give gifts. I told stories. Stories to weave values into those gifts - just like currency. To some extent, people purchase gifts based on the stories either told by me or themselves. Gifts become currency. They are bought by people based on the story of their currency aka "value". Well, and what is this currency for? Perhaps, the same thing in some sense, "Ego and Dignity". People would say they buy gifts with higher value (grander stories told) for others because they respect them. But in actual fact, perhaps in addition to respecting others, they are feeding their ego. The ability to give something of higher value feeds their ego, like a cocktail of success in the mouth..and perhaps an Olympic torch in the hand = Power! And of course, when one has power, they naturally feel dignified. Self esteem boosted. They feel worthy and perhaps respectable. It's a reflection. It is. I'm not saying giving gifts are not good. I'm just thinking there is a whole lot depth to ponder and learn about others and ourselves when we give. I was so taken aback and had this fear for money when I see that glow. That smile. That laugh that he is trying so hard to contain. But that's when he told me all ways he want to use the money. I loosen up. My heart regains its beats. My body regains its warmth. 

He went on saying about how he could now has the possibility of clearing a burden for someone dear to him. He could perhaps send his kids to take up courses. I don't quite remember what else he mentioned in between. But only towards the end, he said and perhaps he could now go to the dentist. He could fix his teeth which have been giving him pain and difficulty in chewing solid food. My heart sank, I felt the pinch, or more than that, perhaps something pricking into my heart. I felt the pain. But I didn't shed a tear until now when I recount on those moments and writing this out, baring my heart. Ultimately, a lesson learn here; Having money is not enough to make you happy. It is having that ability to give (be it money, or anything else) that makes one happy eventually. It is the ability to give. 

3. It is the ability to give what one deem good or even great for someone that makes him/her happy. However, it is the receiver's genuine appreciation, gratitude for the gift that makes the happiness full and abundance. Understanding this will explain why there are so many people whose happiness is not full even when they give. Hence, an important lessons learn here; Giving takes two hands to clap as well. Give Good. Receive with gratitude. 

4. To me, nothing is greater, happier than having my loved ones close to me so I can give and receive with gratitude. I don't have to be rich. I just have to remember the beauty of giving and that money isn't all you can give. We are all here to give. Everyone has something to give that money can't buy. Give that. And whether we are aware of it or not, we are giving something every moment. It could be as simple as a smile, a nod of head to a stranger. We may not see the significance in that simple gesture, but have we ever wonder maybe a smile is just what the stranger need most at that moment and he/she has received your smile with so much gratitude. 

5. Happiness is about perspective. 

6. Giving is joyful when we think of others first.

Owl and Bee

 Owl met Bee

 And the story begins.....

Bird draw an owl on the Bear! It's really cute!

Kiddo lego

http://www.flickr.com/photos/isayx3/5441922276/

This reminds me of my kiddo day so much. I love lego. And this brings back sweet memories. 

There are toys that will never grow old. Makes me wanna start playing lego again:)

And this kind of inspire me to build "Teahouse" with lego.

Happiness matters

"God knows there is a lion on the inside of you! You are a champion, a warrior and a survivor. It's time to quit putting yourself down. You need to say, "God loves me for who I am and I can love myself. I am created in His image. I was created to love and to be loved. I can be happy and Happiness Matters!" - Love this quotation and probably a great energizer:)

"You deserves to be happy"