Rambling on reasons

Everyone has a reason behind what they do. Or perhaps the statement should be phrased in such a way; " Everyone can creates a reason for something"

If everyone has his/her reason to do something and everyone has different reasons, what do we do?

It doesn't help with everyone talks about their own reason and expecting others to accept. Because like what is mentioned before, everyone can weave different stories as a reason.

When everyone expect each other to understand their reason, that's when those beautiful stories known as reasons has a change of name "unreasonable".

Men have their reasons. Women have their reasons. Bosses have their reasons, employees have their reasons. Friends have their reasons. Everyone says they have a reason for doing certain thing. Deep beneath the sheep coat engraved with the word "reason", is a simple fact that everyone is telling themselves a story and to make sure they are not in a state of self deception, they tell the stories to others in a different name known as facts. Everyone is trying to sell stories as the ultimate truth.

Do reasons exist? How important are reasons? Maybe perhaps what we need is empathy for others instead of reasons. If reasons are fictional and a matter of perspectives, can we now try to tell story from another person's point of view? Feel their story, hear their hearts and be for once, in the moment with another person rather than selling the thing call "reasons"

Let's cut away the reasons, let's hear people out. Let's share our empathy for each other and feel more joy rising from our hearts.

This post is dedicated to a bird

Yes! This post is dedicated to a bird that sparks my morning with his beautiful singing:) I was walking with weary heavy steps as I heard a beautiful rhythmic voice singing away, I followed the singing and found this bird. (I googled and not sure if it's a bay backed Shrike) I stood there for awhile, enchanted by his singing. Though probably it isn't me that he is trying to attract. Haha. It leap from branch to branch, singing proudly into the sky:) awww it makes me smile!

In fact, it seems I shared such affinity with birds today. This morning before I got out of bed, not sure it's a dream but I heard birds singing so beautifully n loud near me. It was a sparrow. Not because I recognize the singing but somehow something in the dream drawn me to realize that is a sparrow.

As i was reflecting about my encounters with birds..somehow this quote "his eyes is on the sparrow" appear in my mind. And somehow I am feeling yes perhaps god or the universe is watching over me.

And as I hop on a cab, the uncle told me I'm his best customer of the morning because my perfume smell so nice:) especially when he encounter several man passengers who seems to carry an odor. Haha so I'm delighted to refreshes his senses. And at the same time I'm feeling good that somehow says such nice words to me:) hee
And before I alighted, the uncle wish me goodness in whatever I do and a good day:) of course I wish him too:)

It's a small gesture, but I'm feeling alive and loved. How often do we receive such blessing from a strangers? How often do we give such blessing to strangers, passerby of our life, people who stroll pass us in our life movie?

I'm thankful:) I am loved:) and I love you all.

Happy Mother's day

Happy Mother's Day:)

Had a good mellow day with mum in the west..visited two new malls. Shopping, trying clothes..and found good buy for just $6!!! That's a great deal. It's not exactly about the money sometimes but the fact that most things are over priced (because we don't really need it anyway) so to found a great deal is an exciting thrill (at least for me). Oh and ironically (though much appreciated), I'm the one shopping most of the day and mum bought me a $22 blouse when I didn't really have a present for Mother's day. Well that's why I love my mum! Because beyond all her talking about money and comparing my salary to her friend's daughter, she is really not that a money person deep down. And I didn't like to get a present purposely for an occasion when I have no strong idea what to get. Mainly, she is contented just having me accompanying her during this day for mothers. I take this seriously:) Every year, since the day I realize the importance of kinship and that life is unpredictable and most importantly, that parents really love us unconditionally, I have made a point to accompany my mum especially during such occasion. It has nothing to do with the success of someone who founded and so many others who branded Mother's day. Personally, it's a day to remember love and loved ones. It's easy to neglect, oversees our loved ones when we are in our midst of making sense of life and making life meaningful. So days like these is a good reminder and opportunity to be with our loved ones. 

I love how we took pictures of ourselves sitting in Franc Franc, eating frosty icecream and fries at Wendy's, trying clothes in one small fitting room, looking at durians, sharing fried kway teow and oyster omelet in hawker. Yap, it's simple pleasure of life being with my loved ones that brings me immense joy:) Will update with photos in next post. 

I reached home with an intention to vacuum and mop the floor, but was too sleepy to do so. Keep telling myself to settle some writing and getting started on something. But just can't get my heart on it. So endup reading away, one after another and I found enjoyment in it:) ( Yap I'm someone who is learning how to enjoy, I found myself finding faults with myself at not doing something or well in that something more than I allow myself to just simply do nothing. Sadly sometimes even reading is considered as doing nothing to me. So each time I spend more time reading than doing, I felt bad) Yes, yes I'm such an uptight person who is too serious about doing things. 

I was randomly reading blogs online and come across a post which I can relate so much which make me tear a bit, felt my heart sank a bit but also reaffirm some pending decision of mine to take a leap. So I continue to allow myself to simply just read on... below are some of the articles I been reading.

http://www.thechangeblog.com/right-rejection-and-happy-acceptance/

http://www.thechangeblog.com/losing-your-job-live-your-dream/

http://www.omswami.com/

Good night:) Good Morning:)

Simply in love

http://www.etsy.com/shop/UTHAhats?ref=seller_info

I simply love these hats!!!! awww tribal tribal!!! hmmm 

Well that's simply so BEE! Hee and this makes me kind of happy:)

and wake up from falling asleep while doing space drawing.

Skyrocket your happiness

http://www.thechangeblog.com/10-wise-choices-to-skyrocket-your-happiness/

Illusion

Just finished watching a show "Illusion", introduced by Bird. It's a very nice show, very meaningful. Get me thinking different phrases of my life and decisions I made, paths I took. If life is like a movie, how am I living it so far? How do I want to write my movie. If life is like show reels of movies, then does everything happen for a reason? Does having me watching this movie, writing this post part of the show reel as well? It's certainly a lot to think about, but also perhaps a lot to let go.

Good night:)

Nature n harmony

Love these pictures that bird send me this morning:) There is this quiet yet majestic power within Nature. The glow of the sun, the green of the tree, the texture of its bark. Listen to them.. Watch them... There perhaps hidden the magic that we human has been seeking. Perhaps it's all about harmony.

My little sunshine at home

Saw these little sprouts growing, reaching for the sun this morning:) its amazing how with the right nourishment, it sprout out of its shell.. And leaves grow out of it.

Music and Passion

http://www.ted.com/talks/benjamin_zander_on_music_and_passion.html

Being Joy

Oh right... Bee is buzzing here and there and everywhere lately. Mainly, I'm buzzing through my way to understand what makes me happy and what energizes me and give me joy. I always thought I have a work that I'm happy with and that it doesn't feel like work. Maybe that is true for large first part of my journey in this work. But recently, it seems to be further and further away from what seems like a dream that I would fulfill with joy. It seems to be deviated from what I always thought it is. So honestly, I felt lost for the first time and maybe even a little depressed. I started asking myself questions. I realise I could do so much more and there are so much more things that could energize me beside work.

I watched talks, read books, did alittle gardening, getting high with my friend who says Popsicle reminds her of me, hug a dog, snapping photos. Well I'm happy while I'm doing all these. I'm someone who just have to pour my heart into something because that is pretty much me. My soul.

Wish all animals receive good love & care

Hmm I have quite a number of stuffs to write about. But the one thing that triggers my mind now is an abandoned dog. I have never taken care of animals before. Well I have pet rabbits, tortoise before..but that were long before I can remember when I was just kiddo. Of course, even if I remember, pulling rabbits ears and spinning tortoise on its shell definitely doesn't make me sound like a good animal carer. In fact, I doubt my ability to take care of things, from plants to animals to people. I have a heart for them, but just didn't think I have hands for them. I find myself too forgetful, too rough to handle life.
Well I received a text from my cousin asking if I can keep an abandoned dog for a while. I got really   excited about it, thinking how am I gonna ask my mum for permission to do so. Though I have qualms about how am I gonna take care of a dog. But the thought of the dog suddenly being abandoned out in the open with just a plate of water some people left for it, my heart kind of sank. I have seen how my friend took care of her beloved dog, Rei. She is really a fortunate girl to have my friend to take care and love. And I do understand how animals strike this connection with human. I was just hugging Rei yesterday. She is warm and the moment I press the door bell, she was right there in front of me. I was surprised at her speed since she can hardly walk with her crippled leg after an operation some time ago. I held her in my arms, walked around my friend's place. She is so warm. I must admit I find it hard to resist loving these little furry friends.

Anyway, I reached home, saw my dad and thought wow asking my dad may have better chance. But to my disappointment, his ans was a flat no and my mum was complaining how dogs can have furs around and how she dislike people who keep pet. Though of course, I think that is her ignorance at some point about pet from what she heard from people. Yes dogs to shed fur, make noise, poo.. But don't we human do all those as well. Well I got back into my room, my brother walked in and asked me my dad's response. I said no. My brother mentioned Shihtzu is known for its notorious barking and skin problem. My sister agreed. My brother left the room to shower, my sister continues her sleep. And I just sat there at my desk, tearing away not sure why. But tears just well up. I'm such a kiddo. Sometimes I do feel like I'm the youngest in the family. This reminds me of how I bought milk bottle and powder for a kitten I found at my neighbor's flower pot.

Well, wish all animals receive good care and love from their human friends.

And thanks to Bird for being a listening ear and offer that I could keep a dog in our home next time if I really really really want to. hehe well, I probably wouldn't specially buy a dog but knowing that I could keep animal and Bird being so understanding make me feel so loved!

random

I don't fancy the new blogger interface. It's draggy though it's supposed to be made simple and "designer". Anyway maybe I'm just feeling extra edgy at the moment. Well had a good day out with friends. It's alright. But just when the night falls and the thought of having to go back to work makes me feel really sick. Why do I feel that? What do I feel? Utter disappointment plus resentment = extreme unhappiness. Everyone need a pat on the shoulder. And when there is no pat on a shoulder for a prolonged period of time + more ridiculous demand = the feeling of lethargic. Because of my dad's retrenchment years back, I told myself I'm not going to work in a company for life. But recently, I found out I based my life on just a company. A company I trusted and loved for a good long seven years because of a direction and a belief I have in mind and lots of faith. But the faith seems to be burning out..as with the dispersion of direction and fading values I observed. and yes. as much as I hate to mention. I'm feeling depressed and desperately needed a clean break rather than climbing up walls pasting wall stickers to save 10% profit margin that disperse into unknown area, a bottomless pit. I'm an ambitious person who takes work as challenge and willing to work hard. Never mind the extra hours and sweat or tears too. I will bite my teeth to do something. I have a scar on my leg from hot glue gun while trying to squeeze myself into a window display with a unrealistic design. I beg and play silly with people just to achieve something with a real limited resources. I sweat like hell being summoned to organise merchandising during peak season just after I rush out photoshoot and catalog and promotional stuffs. I do last min shop drawing because a presentation is needed to save a space. But am I involved and asked for opinion in actual store design? Ans so far is no. never. I write brand story for presentation. But not given budget to really fulfilling what it takes to build the brand. I shared about giving as company value, but I see nothing about doing things for customers as human beings. This is why I needed a break. A company should know their why of doing things. I need a why too. All the above, I don't see a glimpse of why. My boss told me to think in his position. I did. I do all the time. He asked me what is the most important thing in the company. The answer he wanted is "to stay afloat". So I gave him that. I'm no hypocrite. But that's no point arguing or saying otherwise too. Staying afloat is important but rethinking the why and how to live up to it is critical especially at times of crisis. This would be what I love to answer him. Oh one more thing, all that I do, my boss told me is not my priority. All the liaising and coordinating of merchandising schedules, pasting of stickers, doing signage are not my priority. I agree. He just need me to support these things when necessary. Funnily, these things are always necessary so 90% of my time is on non priority list. If you have just one life to live, would you want to spend 90% of your time on non priority list? I wouldn't want to, but im exactly doing that now. Which is the reason of my unhappiness.

My priority list:
To learn more about business, to test on my acumen.
To earn more income so I don't have to compare prices of bread in supermarket, or so I can tell my mum to quit her job because I can give her allowance.
To prepare for wedding and future nest with Bird.
To set up my own business or at least living to my values.
To go Finland to witness aurora myself.
To be happy.

These are my priority. Can I ask my boss to put himself in my shoes now? haha
There is an old saying that "Bosses and employees' perspectives would never match." This is the new era with heighten consciousness and awareness. An era about design thinking and human development. An era where people seek to live with meaning and fulfillment. An era where tv advertisement becomes entertainment shows, promotion becomes cheap thrills for companies who think they are doing something to increase productivity and profit. Time always changes. What is the one thing that remains constant? The heart. From? Heart in us. When all fails, listen to the heart. Maybe bosses should listen to the hearts of human (customers, employees instead of reading the heartbeats of sales.) Why look at something that you an predict like the sales forecast when it is the heartbeats of people that fuel the actual business.

A B C biscuits

Mama bought these cute little cookies yesterday. It's one of my childhood favourite cookie. Mostly thank to
The story telling and playing of alphabets my mama engaged me in. Still remember how she will dip those alphabets into a mug of milo and scoop one out of it and asked me "what alphabet is this?" My mama don't really know English but she learnt it her way and taught us her way. She will ask me to repeat after her. "O" "A" and there makes the scooping and munching of the biscuits so exciting! So yesterday I drop the alphabets into the mug of milo (the owl mug bird got me) hehe. And I started out scooping it one by one out. Hehe my mama is proud of me who still remember this snack time play thing. She didn't say. But I just know it:) its lovely!! I love my mama and her cute little ways with us!

When we are together

It's a simple yet fulfilling weekend. Supposed to be a reading day but we were distracted by the growing clouds and beetle. So yeah we had a huge burger! Snap photos of clouds and beetle which is crawling real fast on the window pane. And follows by early supper of dim sum! :)

alive with music

Love & life

Bird sent me these this morning and I just love it so much n can't wait to share..

Morning gifts

I fell asleep so quickly last night. I felt the texts coming in, at least I hear one sound alert of it. I felt my mum came in n give me a hug and I sleepily open my arms for hug, but it feels like a dream too. Just before I am fully awake, I saw this beautiful sunset and I was rushing to snap a picture of it from my home. The sun was glaring, the sky is transcending from hues of orange to dark blue. And interestingly I saw this picture that bird sent to me. Yeah.

And I receive a text from my poo poo nurse friend greeting good morning rise and shine with sun n sunflower n kiss!

Next I receive another text from my Ms Tong! Sending me a hot air balloon because I was telling her how much I want to float away on a balloon for awhile to get away. And here I receive such adorable polar bear hot air balloon. *is this a sign again? To ask me go Finland* haha

Well all these little texts are great gifts of this morning! Making my morning lovelier. Somehow it's like angels sent to boost me afloat. To pull me from the pit bottom I'm gradually feeling.

Oh and I send balloon to pick up my poo nurse to join in the floating! Haha this is how energy being boost and spread on eh!

So thank you my angels:) I love you all:)

rambling

Haven't been writing via my lovely computer at home lately. And I just realise it's been almost a week since I went back from my leave. But the one week feel especially long. Maybe because the 4 days leave have been mostly spent on work too. Can I have the excuse to blog how I feel right at the moment. Some reasons of my unhappiness:

1. I'm tired!
2. Keep track of things make me lethargic.
3. Meeting is draining and a waste of time. (Seriously don't see the point of playing democratic, when I need is simply tell me what's up..what need to be done. Because whether I like it or not, my opinion didn't quite matter.
4. Hate chasing the numbers and running for it.
5. I'm not doing what I feel is my forte.
6.There is a lop sided equations

A bird that taught me the lesson about resilience

Suddenly as I stood in train n wander my soul away.. I Realise the importance of Visual images that we observe n feel together is so important.. I suddenly remember that day at tea house I saw this cripple bird with one leg completely fractured, its still hoping around and use that one leg to lift it to flight.. N suddenly that's a images to remind of resilience.. Being resilience at difficult circumstances n flow with it. I was imagining how the bird must have thought shit! It better don't fracture the other leg becos that may means nothing to lift it to flight but now I think maybe the bird just didn think anything but just do whatever has to be done.

Birds

These are the birds in my hideout.. Love them roaming around while I work on my stuffs:)

Loving my little hideout

Finally reach my hideouts after running some errands here and there. Chose a outside seat instead. Nice feeling with the fan ventilating just above my head. Sound of the traffic, the crickets, watching the leaves falling, drifting in the wind. Seriously this is a much better office for me! Saw a bird standing on a tree pruning its feather.. Probably taking a rest from a morning of work.
On my way here, saw an old couple walking slowly to their house, trees swaying with the wind, the sunlight and shadows below the trees, two secondary school boys at the bus stop, looking so adorable and carefree, munching their snacks and drinking milo, they smile at each other and that make me smile to be able to witness life around me. I'm thankful.

And here guess I just passed the lunch and off school time, it's pretty spacious. As I pushed open the glass door, facets of stories in various stages of my life here surfaces, for an instant, I am filled with mixed feeling which turns out to be good as I acknowledges myself here in this moment of my life. I look around, I have grown. There are office people, students all around me. But none of them know the existence of one another I supposed. Each looking at their books, gadgets, indulge in their own conservation with themselves and friends. I'm here writing this as I munch on my lunch.

I wish I could have more time here before it turns into some private development again. There are still so many people I want to bring to this place.

Time to get back to indulgence and work on my concepts before the moon comes out again.

Perfect pear pair

http://theperfectpearpair.blogspot.com

Come across this image from the perfect pear pair and I'm loving all the DIY crafts guides (Though I'm not someone into craft works, but love seeing them) And most of all, I love this image and the quotes!

I love to wander:) I'm not lost.

Gardening

Just read an article about Business lesson from a quiet gardener from ijourney. I can't help but amazed by such a synchronicity. Just some time ago, my friend adopted a little piece of land at the rooftop of her workplace to plant some corns. And last weekend, we went to have a look and clear some weeds from the "plantation". Of course, we weren't thinking about business at all. It was all fun and great form of exercise for us. And most of all, seeing those corns "popping" out from the leaves just left us in awe. That was my first time clearing weeds. It's not as easy as one may think. First have to identify which are the weeds and shove some soil out to pull out the roots and in the midst of doing all these, have to pay special attention in not chopping the roots of the sweet corn! And after clearing the weeds, follows some tying of little poles to make the sweet corn growing straight up and doesn't (in my friend's words) "fracture" its stem. Oh at first, I can't bear to get rid of the weeds. Because to me, they are lovely plants too. I spotted a tiny mushroom growing out from the little windmill decor. But of course, the objective is to grow corns, not weeds nor mushrooms. So back to the big picture, I plucked out the weeds around. 

Now to think of it in relation to business, maybe that's a little reminder for us to always remember what is our objective of business; the big picture. And who are we targeting at, what do we want to achieve. Because it's easy to settle for the weeds and tell myself that weeds are beautiful too. (Maybe a little like how business tends to fall into the trap of targeting at the easy customers, despite knowing they are not the intended group of consumers for long term goal.)

And like what the article mentions, seriously gardening is a lot about harmony, balance. Put fertilizer, but not too much. Water it, but not over do it. Expose to sun, but remember we are not grilling the corns yet. Planting and gardening takes a lot of care and attention to notice every single element to be in place for a healthy growth. The water, soil, density of plants, sun, fertilizer, weeds, seeds. And of course, not forgetting, to cause less harm to the insects that inhabit in vicinity. 

In my own opinion, gardening is some form of exercise in striking the balance mindlessness and mindfulness. Mindlessness as in it kind of clear your mind of unnecessary thoughts since you have to use physical energy and attention while taking care of the land, the roots of plants. Mindfulness as in it practices heighten awareness of surrounding environment, higher consciousness of co-existing with a lot more life forms than we usually notice. The ants, the bees, the butterflies...the caterpillar...they are all there. The food we eat; the veggies, the corns, the rice all have to go through the process of growing from seedlings to harvesting by hands. The next time we eat a ladyfinger or a corn, remember how much care it has received from nature and its caregiver before it can reach us as food.

Random moodboard

http://stevenakamura.com/

Dont worry. Be happy!

Im so totally in the fun with this!!! 

More of this please!!

Cool experimental stuff

Live Life like a Party!

"Live Life like a Party! Anywhere. Anytime. BE the fullest of you. Enjoy. Play. Dance. Sing. Most of all..LOVE! Love yourself! Love what you do. LOvE someone and everyone! Love your music. LoVe your soul! For you only live once. Be the love and Joy." - buzzed by Bee

Well..finally I got my butt down in front of my mac and my new orange notebook on my table, trying to get into some kind of "trance" so I can get into that precise right frame to conceptualize the upcoming shoot for quirky robot stuff. Forcing for ideas has never really work for me. Because if it didn't come, it just didn't. So I try to get myself into play mode. Switch channel to the bee who loves to play, the outdoor, the women, the sexy woman, the cute blue chick, the beach, the sea, the dream of fantasy kiss on a hot air balloon with the tribes dance for me in the desert, the rainbow on my hair, the hug of old granny and pops, the running against edge of the cliff, the speed of a bike, riding in the rain, the non stop beats of music that colors the beach, the sky and the bees and birds (Imagine pink bee and purple bird), running along a coast of a no man land, with nothing but maybe a bird grinning, enjoying the red peppers, yellow peppers, green chilies in my martini drink with lime of course and salt, the sweat and tears oozing down my body, the chili chill that ripples down my spines, I laugh, dancing to the drum beats of the tribes, I sing, on top of my voice some language that I didn't know, everyone follows, we are happy, we hug, we go for a skinny dip (everyone, young and old, fat and skinny, white, black, brown), we are joy, we are love, there is no separation between you and me, we make merry, we live now like a party because life is either a life long party or a life long tug of war, you decide. Indulge in cakes, play with the cream, draw a white mustache on your love, smell the coffee or the wine, taste the secret of chocolate and be mesmerized, paint the walls with your colors, draw something on your door, anything, hug a tiger, lay on a panda, parrot a parrot saying I love you, Listen to the whispers of couples in love, the birds chirping, the flipping of pages of book as the wind blows, the foot steps on sand and water, the butterfly flaps its wings, watch the snail chewing on leaves at your feet, the rain drops on your window, the egg sizzles in your pan, everything has a voice. So do you. Know your voice. Let it sing. 

 

http://knstrct.com

Life with synchronicity is like poems with rhymes :) It just flows on... all we need to do.. is feel the flow

My new toy!!

My new tiny toy to accompany bee!!! <3

Live watch leave

Live, watch, leave..

These words came upon me during my journey today. Saw big bird gliding across the sky as my friend drove pass the expressway along some jungle. Hear thunder and saw bright lightening across the sky of dark clouds, water to ankle level, a dosmetic helper jump as the thunder sounded and she dropped her umbrella. My friend was looking at photos. Rain pouring from the huge umbrella of McDonald's. Walk my friend home but caught in muddy water so we walked along the road divider. We were going opposite ways, we both carried an umbrella. Hers red. Mine green. We look at each other, smile and laugh. We parted our ways. We waved at each other when we each heading our own ways on separate paths. Missed the bus as I dug into my bag for wallet. I walked to the station. Heard bird chirping on the tree. Look up, rain drops fell on my face. It's beautiful like crystal pure water from nature or universe. In the center of the road, a bird was drenched. Feathers soaked. It's hopping its way. I saw a millipede swimming in water. Saw a young man in wheelchair queuing up to get pass the train station gantry. Saw a woman at the platform in a lovely black dress. She look pretty. Hopped on the train.. Saw the field of my old school is wet from rain. People playing soccer. Saw sky with tint of orange and bird standing tall on tree from the jungle next to teahouse. The childhood estate has become a empty open field except for the old market turned into retail outlets. Two person training sparring in a tennis court from a condo.
Yea these are some happenings going on through out the day.
Sometimes it's good to live your fullest, watch your surrounding.. Each and every moment.. And leave it as it is..let it pass. Watch and let it pass.

Our body is like a house for our soul.. What we truly are is our soul. Live a soulful life with all your heart of love and joy! Love and share the joy. Some day when the house of your soul turns old.. Your soul will still remain. So carry and share your soul with as many as you can.

Random! Bee buzzing

I'm finally on leave! A long awaited one! Though the purpose of this leave is still mainly work! Yeah! To get out of office so I can conceptualise for the upcoming photo and video shoot for the new product launch. But since today is the first day of leave and I'm having alittle headache and muscles tension. I endup hanging around with my goodie old friend! The happy poo poo nurse! Went for lunch together and somehow ended up going back to her hospital to send char Siew pau to her patient; an old cute lady. Aww I'm thankful for having such good heart and happy friend in my life. Watching her speaking Teo chew to the granny and holding her hand is a nice warming sight! So yeah! I have friends who matches what I values in life. Love, care and sharing are some priceless values to me. To some extent I'm thinking if only im less forgetful and more careful.. Then perhaps I can make a good nurse too! Haha cos I love interacting with people and sharing the sunshine with everyone. Hehe of cos im perhaps too emotional or imaginative to be a nurse too. So still I think being a designer, consultant suits me better. Oh I got a new toy today that I can't wait to show bird! Hehe and spent on a pictorial books with simple quotation. Though I didn think that the pictures are very nice to spend that amount on.. But somehow feel that perhaps those words in the books can strike a chord in whatever I want to design or create in my job n projects. So if that's the case, then the value it can contributes will be probably pretty priceless too. So yeah! After much thoughts, I bought the book. Oh I'm also thinking perhaps on the midst of panicking about having no ideas, maybe the book is just right there to meet me to spurs some inspiration out of me! And tell me why to do next! So so yeah yeah.. I'm kind of following my intuition! Oh yeah! That's my plant here! Took a picture of it to remind bird to water for me in my absence. It's growing taller and I'm happy! Hehe got a new bigger home for it.. Just wondering when I could move it. Didn want to hurts its roots.

Oh and that's poo poo nurse's mug in her office! Yeah she is back in office to arrange some stuffs! Love the mug!! Inspire me to make one myself! Hehe
I'm looking forward to a shoulder massage! Hopefully there is still time before I meet another pal later.

Head hurts! >_<" ahhh I'm feeling guilty of not doing any work relate stuff today except getting the book for inspiration and perhaps that's y I'm having headache! So ahh I need to relax!! That's the whole purpose to be away from office anyway! To relax so I can think!